I'm feeling rather sorry for myself today...and wanted to rant to other people who understand...sorry if this is just a lot of nonsense...I haven't had any sleep.


Last night after coming home from a friends house I got the worst n* have ever had in my life. It was so bad I became extremely unsettled and extremely aggitated. Usually, I can just about cope with nausea, but last night I just couldn't deal with it. After about half an hour I got extremely hot and sweaty and my stomach started cramping and I suddenly started panicking. The last time I felt like that was when I last v* years ago. I got out of bed, drank some water and stuck my head out of my bedroom window for some fresh air. I began to feel better so climbed back into bed. I was fine for about ten minutes before I started shaking. Sure fire sign I was having what my mum calls an "emet moment".
Two hours later (it's now 3:17am) I have d*, after putting off going to the bathroom for ages because I was terrified I'd have to v* too.
Felt a little better after this so went back to bed...still feeling extremely s* and rather hot.
I tried listening to my iPod, I tried reading a book, but nothing was making me feel any better.
I eventually had around a half an hours sleep at about 8am.


This morning I'm feeling extremely tired, and unfortunately, still feel rather s*.
And I had to take a trip to the dentist this morning so you can imagine how happy I am!


I've never had a night like that before, even when I've v*, and I can't think what caused it.


My mum, who usually sorts me out when I have "emet moments" was away last night, so maybe thats why I got so worked up, but it was just awful.


I'm moving to a shared house with friends from Uni next month, and will be living away from home for the first time ever. I have no idea how I'm going to cope. Nobody understands emet and Uni, and I'm terrified I'll have many more nights like this with people unable to comfort me.
How do you all cope??


Good news is, I'm hopefully going to be able to try hypnotherapy to help me get over my emet, because it's causing so much upset.


If you're still reading this, thank you, and I'm sorry to rant on, I just needed to get it out of my system as my dad doesn't understand emetophobia at all and my mum isn't home yet.


J.