Well to start off hello everyone,
I found this site and was amazed that many people suffer from the same thing as I do. Which puts me at ease knowing I can have someone else to talk to that understands where im comming from. Im not going to go on too much about me but I think it would be a great start to speaking to all of you about this topic.
Im Bruce, Im 19 years old. And I have been terrified of this for about 2 years now every second of everyday. I cant eat right I cant sleep I cant get up and just have a good day anymore and I have been to as many doctors as a cancer patient has seen..
Ive been put on paxil, and many other types of medication that doesnt work.
My stomach hurts allmost every second from me fearing this so much, I cant go out I cant eat out without thinking im going to get a food bourne illness/ food poisoning
I cant touch door handles, I cant shake hands, I cant come into contact with anyone or any object that may have been touched by someone. Its to the point where I cant kiss my girlfriend anymore without thinking im going to be ill, I have panic attacks allmost everyday to where I faint, My blood pressure is sky high now, And im allways nervous.
And yet still everyone thinks that Im either A. mental or B. joking
But to me this is the most serious thing in my life, Im just wishing that I could find an end to this instead of being afriad of something that is all around.
Im going to start hypnotherapy and hope that may help a bit.
Well I hope to get to talk to everyone, and try and get back to living life
Thanks for reading
Bruce