Fun trip *not*

[Galadriel]

Well, this week has just been one of the craziest I've had in a long time. Yesterday my mom came to visit, and this weekend both our car and my brothers were just irriparrably (sp?) damaged, so now we both have to borrow cars for the time being. His car broke down on the way to get my mom, so he ended up having to get a rental car (poor guy got lost too and what shuold have been a 3.5 hour trip ended up 10 hours), so he did manage to get my mom and bring her here to visit yesterday and the day before. Well she went home last nite, and in order for him to drop off the car and everything we had to follow him all the way there and drop off the rental car and then come home all the way back (7 hour round trip). And man for some reason my guts acted up on the ride home nad I really thought i was going to v*. It was horrible. I felt so stuck being in the car, and my bro is like "so you wanna pull over somewhere to pu*?" and part of me was like "wha?" but I just went with it and was like "yeah", so we stopped at a br. Thankfully I didnt end up v*, but it was so bad that I got some pepto (which I never take), and that seemed to help. Man tho I just really wanted to like die, but got through it. I think it was partly cause I hadn't eaten much at all for the past few days (due to feeling nauseas a couple days earlier), but man I just want my guts back to normal.

[rubysoho120]

Oh gosh Im so sorry...are you feeling better now??? I hate when things
like that happen. Its so annoying trying to do normal tihings with an
emet fear!

[Galadriel]

Hey Ruby,
Yeah sometimes emet makes it real hard. I feel like I struggle so hard to not let it win and keep on perservering, and its so hard sometimes. While visiting with my mom I could see how I was similar to her in ways (she has some phobias too), but she is also a lot worse than I am with bipolar and lots of anxiety and pretty bad OCD and she also acts like a child a lot of the time. I just desperately do not want to be like her, but I know I am in ways (with a few phobias I have, and just worry/get stressed easier). It freaks me out sometimes cause I try so hard and keep fighting to not let things like that win, but sometimes I fear I'm destined to end up like her anyways. I don't have teh things she does (bipolar or bad OCD), but most likely I learned behaviors from her growing up with her as my mom. Argh sorry I'm going off here. I think I have some sort of bug because I feel pretty crappy today with my sinuses and achy and stuff. Blehgh. Lol I want it to be warm again.

[curly wurly]

I'm sorry you had such a bad trip. It must have been awful being trapped in the car and feeling so s*. I hope you soon feel better. I am sure you will not end up like your mum, you are probably just worrying about this as you are anxious about being unwell. Feel better soon.

[Galadriel]

Hey Curly,
thanks for the reply. I guess not feeling good can make a lot of things seem worse than they are.