Don’t know what I’m doing

[missminty]

Ach i just feel so messed up at the moment. I have no clue what i'm doing, i feel really directionless, im not getting my uni work done because i just can't sit and concentrate. I have a review meeting with one of my tutors today and i don't want to go. My essays have been ok but i know im doing my best but i dont know how to get back into things.I have my second cbt session today and im dreading that aswell. Last week was ok but it did make me feel like s*** afterwards. I have to to the theatre tonight and i really dont want to. I know it will be good and i managed it last week without panicking but im not sitting with my friend and i just cannot face it. I have a headache and feel like im gonna hav d*, iv had some toast this morning but iv already decided that im not eating anything else, I just can't handle it. I was cuddling a guy who was really sick all the night before and now im terrified iv caught it. I hate feeling like this because it really freaks me that im going down into a big depressive funk again. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaggghhhh i just can't make sense of what im feeling and i dont know what to do.


Sorry for the rant, i thought i might be able to work things out if i wrote them down

[livielove123]

Gah! I'm sorry! I am feeling like that too actually. I was supposed to
go out with friends today but one couldn't and then i went out to
lunch with the other one and halfway through i got really n*. I told
her I wasn't feeling well and i tried to get through the panic. We were
gonna see a movie with a few other people but then when we got
there i was panicing even more. Then my dad drove up which was
really random but it think it was just a coincidence and I just broke
down and told everyone i couldn't see it and we just left. I got home
and i have to work on college essays which are makin me feel weird
and I feel just really depressed and lost. sorry...that was somewhat
of a rant but the point is I understand. Your probably fine, i know we
all get in those funks sometimes. I am just trying to relax. If you
have to back out of something try not to feel guilty and if you want to
go, try because you can always leave if you can't handle it. I'm
sorry! I hate this feeling too!

[turtleiam]

I'm sorry guys. I feel for you. Just hang in there. Sounds like both of you could use some extra help. I remember my college days being VERY stressful & I wasn't even emet then.


What are either of you doing to help your anxiety? Anxiety is way too big to handle alone. Are you in any sort of counseling? Meds? Self help books?


I'm not sure in the UK, but most colleges in the USA have pretty good counseling and often it's free.


Also, in dealing with the anxiety right now . . . think about your anxiety and rate it. Then, rate it 5 minutes from now . . . 20 mins. . . and so on. You'll find that your anxiety level with drop. That helps me. Also, think about what things in your life are causing anxiety. Are you hungry? Tired? Big events coming up? These are all things that can make your anxiety rise.


I've also heard that if you try to bring on a panic attack you'll find that you can't. But, if you're resisting and fighting it - you'll have no problems panicking. I haven't had the nerve yet to try that.


We're all here for you . . .


Susan

[missminty]

Hey thanks for your replies susan and livie. I went to my cbt lady today and told her how i was feeling. We didnt do any cbt work today coz she thought it might make me worse but we talked through a lotof things and it definetly helped. And then i realised what a huge part of how i was feeling was - little monthly visitor! I had totally forgot that i was due on and i always get these weird antsy feelings beforehand. I was so glad to have something to attribute them to! So i think all is well, i was just feeling a little over-emotional and hormonal and hopefully in a few days i'll be able to see things more clearly!


Thanks for the support though!


xxx