this phobia stinks (venting)

[scaredycat]

well, i have a stomachache. probably because i stuffed myself at dinner then ate a chocolate bar. the worst part is this ridiculous obsessing i'm doing. do most people think constantly that they might v every time they have the slightest ache? i wish i could just go about my daily life and if i have to go p*** just go do it and be over with it. rationally speaking, i know it would not be a big deal if it happened. gross but not death or anything. yet i am feeling so nervous and worked up. i have ruined so many days/nights/vacations/etc. worrying that it will happen and it never does (knock on wood - and why do i even have to knock on wood!). even if it did happen, it would only ruin a day or two, but no, i let it ruin so many days! how in the world did i end up this way?! does anyone else feel this way? thank you all for listening. it does help to know other people understand and don't think i'm just being really babyish.

[dutchess]

I am 100% exactly the same way...it sucks so bad doesnt it?!!! It controls my life and i hate every minute of it. We sure as hell didnt ask for it and why is it when we discovered we had it, we didnt even have a reciept to take it back??? lol just trying to lighten things up a little! Im sure you are ok though....and i probably am too but we are not to good at convinceing "ourselves"!

[scaredycat]

thanks dutchess. i would give anything if the phobia were "returnable!" I would even exchange it for another phobia, say of snakes or heights. At least those don't pose a threat EVERY SINGLE DAY. now I find myself worrying that if I don't worry, I will be sick. What kind of I screwed up reasoning is that? [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img] I hope you're feeling better too.

[kasey]

If only it was a fear of heights...well then I wouldn't go climb a mountain or step on a plane...


Why this? I ask myself that question 1,000 times a day.


I don't know and I doubt I will ever know...


Hey ya'll, I have suffered from this phobia since I was 8...I am 28...I have been angry, sad, then angry again...I have questioned God and I have questioned my very existence...This phobia has ruled my life, and at times, ruined my life. The only thing that gets me through the days and gives me hope of my healing and freedom is blind faith...Because it's blind,it's the hardest faith to have, but it gives me hope...I truly believe, wait, I truly KNOW that I will be cured of this and I believe the same for you.

[glitta_fairy]

I totally understand what you mean... Our phobia sucks compared to others because we can't control our bodily functions... but if we had a different phobia we would be able to avoidthe thingwe feared.


Hey- at least we don't have a fear of s***ing! That would be way harder to deal with 'causeyou have to do that everyday!


I think it's really important not to give up. Ifyoufightit and get as much help as you need-one dayyou WILL be one of those people who can go and v* and think nothing of it. Just look at Sage!


I guess what I'm saying is that things won't be this way forever...like Kasey said- it's all about faith. Have faith in yourself... Once you begin overcomethis you'll know how strong you really are, and that you have the power to overcome anything!!


Kayla x

[mac41090]

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