Panic Attack!!

[spilled_milk]

Why does my teacher have to do this to me??


He shows up two days in a row with an sv*. I sit in the back of the room so I wasn't too worried about being exposed, but today during my free period he corners me in the hallway and asks if I can come for a writing conference...I can't say no, because, obviously, i'm just wandering the halls. So I say okay and end up sitting in his cubicle for half an hour with him, like two feet away.


I thought I did a pretty good job of hiding it, although he started burping and I grabbed my shoulder bag and edged really far away, he made a joke like "what, are you getting ready to run?" and that toally freaked me out, like he know that I had emet. I wasn't too too worried, well, I was, but i wasn't allowing myself to be because i didnt touch him or any of my papers that he was holding. But now i'm so scared!


I started shaking and my dad got up to get his glasses and I freaked out and ran to the front door and unlocked it, like i was gonna go run out in the thirty degree weather in a short sleeved shirt without shoes. I hear noises from the other room and I jump out of my skin and get really hot.


Help me!! My psychologist has forbidden my parents to talk about it with me, and it's killing me cause i just sit here panicking more. Gahhhhh!!!!!!


<3 Anya--

[californiagirl]

Why would your psychologist forbid your parents to talk to you about this, when you may really need their support and reassurance? That's terrible!


I'm pretty sure that you can't catch the sv* by sitting and talking with him. As long as he didn't actually v* right by you and you didn't touch what he touched I think you'll be fine. I do understand how uncomfortable you must have felt being that close to him! It's one of those moments when you think to yourself, ".....gosh, I just CAN'T WAIT to get home!!!...", right?


Tomorrow's another day, closer to Christmas and vacation. Hang in there, I think you will be just fine

[spilled_milk]

Thanks! I'm sure you're right.


um, she has this theory thatby me being reassured about it all the time i'm not learning to deal with it on my own, which is sort of true i guess, but i wish that she would wean me OFF support instead of just taking it away altogether.


<3 Anya--

[christi0126]

hmmm....I guess I agree and disagree with your psycologist. I can see that eventually you will have to be able to handle this mostly on your own. Hopefully you will always have a loved one you can lean on when you are really bad, I always went to my mother and 2 years ago she moved STATES away and my emet has actually been alot better because I know I don't have her to fall back on.


And EWWWW! Why the heck would your teacher come to school sick? Right before the holidays....doesn't seem fair to anyone! I think you will be fine though just like Charlene said.