Today I went skiing with my husband and a friend of ours. The ENTIRE time I was worrying about catching a sv* or someone getting sick in the carride home. I mean, this was CONSUMING my mind to the point where I started to question whether I was nauseas or not. It just infuriates me that I can't control my mind enough to not let this thought pattern occur. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever overcome this considering it's gradually become a bigger issue over the years. I just want to be normal. I don't want to be a fearful control-freak. This is all so upsetting.