How do you live with this Phobia?

[fitamia]

Hey you all...


Even I'm getting older, is more and more hard to live with this phobia.
I know is very bad to say that but, sometimes I feel like I prefer to don't be alive.

How you do with this phobia in your lifes day by day??

Please, help me with your advices...

[rubysoho120]

Well I try to live a normal life, with emets, and not emets living for me. So I do pretty much the same thing everyday, except when I have fun things planned. I get up, eat, go to the gym, work out, come home, make breakfast and lunch for my bf, take him to work, get ready for work, go to work, come home, relax. I have many rituals which make me feel normal and safe and sane...like washign my hands after going to the bathroom, and before cooking or eat, hanging the towel on the rack the same way every day. I do dishes and laundry like crazy, and once a week I clean the house. I don't want emets to get any of us down. I wish we could all just have regualr lives, and emet is just a small part of it. I hope that helps

[xxsophiaxx]

ummm I really don't know. It just happens and basically my life goes on.

[spilled_milk]

I just tell myself that wallowing in this phobia will just make me more miserable and afraid. I get worse every day that I sit at home feeling sorry for myself and being afraid. Honestly though, my phobia does not extend to social activities, I can still lead a pretty normal life unless I or someone else is v*ing. The only debilitating thing is the OCD, which is pretty constant. So, panic attacks and OCD.


<3 Anya--

[sarah maria]

How do I live with it? Sometimes I wonder. I always have nervous n*, i sit up nights afraid that im going to v*, and I avoid certain foods and restaurants for fear of fp. I have stupid rituals, (i.e.-> going to bed: glass of water, glasses, tv on just in case i need light, old blanket over my good bedspread, piece of candy on nightstand so i can suck it if my throat feels funny, and ALWAYS a very clear path to the doorway for a quick escape to the bathroom), and even stupider superstitions (i simply will not eat for 5 hours before i take off in a plane, and i eat 1 granola bar during the flight and drink tons of ginger ale. then the plane lands and i eat like theres no tomorrow).


But this makes me, well, me. I personally think im healthier than most people without the phobia. My twin brother, for instance, is sick maybe 10 times for every 1 time i am. I think its because he never washes his hands and is just downright careless with basic health requirements. Even during flu season! Why? Hes not afraid to v*. It doesn't matter to him if he gets sick.


Lucky non-emets. I wonder what its like for one day to be un-afraid of v*.

[shagadelictotty]

I dont really have a life anymore.i lost my job as i spent so much time locked in the toilet panicing about what would happen if i was ill. How long it would take to get home etc.


I miss all my stepchildrens school activities, i cant even do the shopping anymore. I dont see any of my family very much as i cant travel up to them and they all work so i only see them at christmas when they can travel to me. ( i moved away 6 yrs ago)


as soon as i open my eyes i feel scared and get n* to the pit of my stomach. I am so nervous that i have d* almost every day.


I only eat 1 meal a day, always at 3 pm and every day its the same meal (boiled potatoes,1/2 banana & cucumber)


I am getting married in june and that scares the hell out me.


I am having a really bad day today and havnt even got dressed as i am sure i will be ill and have to go back to bed at some point.


All i have done since i got up is smoke a lot and bleach all my door handles,taps & toilet flushes.