this might be a question for sage

[faith-marilyn]

Hey, im not sure who is best to answer this, but sage if u have time it would be a real help !
Well, ive just read sage's reply to emmas post about picking, and i picked up on the fact that sage said she had OCD when she was younger, i think it was 5 or 6, and it suddenly hit me, i remember when i was about that age i used to do things repeatedly, i cant remember what i did but i just remember doing things and saying to myself 'i have to do this a certain amount of times or this or that will happen' is that OCD? im not like that anymore and i dont do or say those things 2 myself, but is this a sign that my emet is more deep rooted than i first thought? i always thought it was from when i got ill when i was 13, but thinking back im starting to put a picture together of how i used to avoid rides when i was younger etc. Do u think it would be a good idea to talk about EMDR with my CBT therapist ? or maybe even regression? Someone please help !
Faith-Marilyn
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[Jenneh]

heya you, your childhood OCD sounds very similar to the OCD i went thru as a child too.


its realy hard to understand wen ur little, all i knew was some voice kept telling me to do these things and do them again e.t.c. e.t.c.


this is for sure a sign that ur emet is more deep-routed. in the way that theres probably some cause of anxiety within you, that isnt just the fact u were ill wen u wre 13.


its defenitely worth tlkin to ur therapist about it , i'd imagine. no harm in doing so anyway!


Jen xxxxxxx

[faith-marilyn]

ok thanx jen, id never even thought about this before but just when i was readin sages reply it just hit me! ahh - well maybe now i can find some answers, i also found out that my cousin had emet when he was younger too but he's cured now so maybe theres hope 4 me too yey !
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[Jenneh]

hes cured??? wow!. how did he manage that??


thats smthing quite significant!! emet running in the family!


Jen xxx

[faith-marilyn]

i dont know how he is cured, but he has a wife and gorgeous kid, i was speaking to him the other day altho he didnt know i know about his emet, im gunna approach it with him soon, hes always been strong so i think he literally pushed himself out of it so he cud get on with his life, i dunno, maybe that is possible?! Lets hope hey !!
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[sweetfreak]

When I was a kid I used to take objects such as books or toys and line them up in a certain order. I would do it over and over again. I think it may be a child's way of trying to focus anxious thoughts. It's the only thing I could come up with.

[sage]

Yes, Yes - Faith-M! What a good idea! Take this to your EMDR therapist. And spend some time talking,if you can, about what life was like as a small child. Kids don't have symptoms of OCD for nothing.


Good luck!

[Jenneh]

you know Sage - i was told the other day that everykid goes thru a slight phase of OCD wen they are growing up ... well maybe not EVERY kid.. but its NORMAL for kids to do that... what do u think?


Jen xxxx

[faith-marilyn]

Thanx Sage! [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]
Faith-M x

[sage]

I wonder what is meant by a "slight" phase. Like anything else, there's a scale. My syptoms as child were pretty remarkable....counting everything...switching lights on and off 8 times. a ritual with touching each finger in turn on a counter or other surface. walking in ritualistic ways...and i remember being very anxious if i couldn't complete a sequence...


anyway - I'm sure it's like everything else. all kids have a fear of vomiting, too...cuz it's scary!

[bethie_bear]

wen i was little i used to look at the corner of my room loadsa times b4 iwent to sleep and i had to sleep with my quilt over the end of my bed like a princess because i thought i wud sick if i didnt! but now i do things like count the number on the telephone to 100 and if i mess up i do it again and again!

[ejb199]

Hey FaithM - i used to be similar when i was younger - but more like 13+ - i had to touch three pieces of wood each three time a pray that i wouldnt be sick. everynight before bed with out fail till i was at least 20...grr! i was just so scared that if i didnt then i might just get sick - and since id done it and i hadnt been sick then this obviously meant it was keeping me safe - altho now i realise that it actually has squat all to do with me v*ing or not!

Im not too sure about the OCD and the picking theory - sorry Sage! i know what you mean and totally agree if it was coz im panicking but it isnt really - i just pick - usually when im bored. it only moves to my skin and self harm if it is panic related and emet related but that is (touchin wood!) very rare now. i dont like doing it - too many scars. and i like wearing short sleaves in summer!! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]