i cant take any of this anymore, my fear, my problems relating to my fear, i dont even want to be alive, then atleast i would have all these stupid problems, i hate them, i hate me, i hate the way i am. because of my emet, im afraid to have anything other then super solid stool, and when i got 4-5 times in a row and they get softer everytime i go into over drive and start panicing. I hate this i cant take it anymore, i wish it was gone, its ruining my life and my family, its tearing me apart, i panic everyday, i freak out everyday, and i usually ball my eyes out because of this and when i panic, i wish i could just be normal, and not have this problem. i wish there was better help, i wish someone could do something to help. no one here understands what i go through they think they do and they think that this is no big deal and they tell me just get over it there is nothing to be afraid of, then they tell me, go make yourself V then you wont be scared, and all i can tell them is i am to scared to even do that! I WANT THIS GONE I CANT TAKE IT, I WANT HELP!


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