I'm so tired of this stupid phobia ruling my life right
now. I dont want anything to do with my family, I cant even look at my
husband right now. I just want to be alone!! I dont want anything to do
with anyone. I hate anyone who v's! I hate this!!! I just want to v and
get it over with, maybe that will help me accept others doing it. I
dont even know if the pharmacies even sell ipecac come to think about
it. Since I never had the courage to ask around, I cant really know for
sure. All I know is that I am TIRED of this and finding a therapist
that can help with this isnt even easy!



Miriam

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