Ummm help!
Ok so i hate my job but I was coping and it was all ok. Until last week on friday afternoon, i felt really sick and panicked and came home. So i thought ok I will be fine but my anxiety has grown worse ending in a full blown panic attack this morning and me calling in sick. MY Boss sounded so mad at me.
So what do I do? I am job hunting anyway because this job sucks. But i am finding it so hard to keep goign in this one. Part of me knows if i go to a Dr tommorrow he will sign me off sick for the week...but then i think I should go to work. If i do go off sick can i be sacked for this? I feel I am letting my emplyers down, I am letting everyone who was proud of me getting a job down. If i dont go in tommorrow i am just putting the nastiness of going in after a panic off till next week so i should face it. But what if I cant? I dont know anymore
I have lost weight, I panic a lot, my stomach is insane with nerves all the time...so i think its valid to be off work???? but then when i am i feel so so so guilty.
There is just so much going on right now and i feel so trapped i want to run away. But that aint gonna solve a lot so whats the use? lol