well i FINALLY had time to do it

[faith-marilyn]

everyone is out of my house today so i put on the exposure tape! it didnt give any warning about what was about to come, but i didnt mind that much, bcos the first scene was so obviously fake, the woman kept lookin at the camera as if she was waitin for her cue to spit out the soup in her mouth! But atleast i put it on, and i do feel kind of sick now, its hard to tell which scenes are which bcos they are all home videos and they just roll into one another, but i have a feeling that it will get very real as the scenes go on, but its just so hard to be able to do it regularly as we only have one video an theres always someone walking in and out, so im off to buy myself a VCR! dear me the things we do 4 this emet! lol [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]
anyway i hope everyone is good, just thought that i would update you on my progress, and i do feel a little bit relieved that it wasnt as bad as i thought, do im praying that this video will help me start to over come this.
Have a good day,
Faith-M
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[sage]

Hey cool - good for you. That must not be the tape from Ambassador Video cuz it doesn't start with a woman spitting out soup. Oh well...good luck!

[party_boi3423]

Hi faith. I was just wondering where you got the tape from because i do know that i need different formats of exposure rather than just pictures!

[faith-marilyn]

No Panic - there is a link in the treatments thread called 'video casettes' the directions for it are there!
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[faith-marilyn]

nope i dont think its the same one either sage, i tried to find ambassedor video but the site is closed down ( Ill have to go thru this one scene by scene to try and configure it b4 i can do anything else i think!
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[Jenneh]

welldone for starting the ball rolling!! very very brave. keep going .


Jen xxxx

[beautifulmind]

hm.. just curious, is watching people v* supposed to help you kinda get over this? seems that everytime i try to look at someone v* or something like that.. it makes it worse. i see them and it's on my mind even more so i'm wondering how watching a tape of people v*ing would help..

[Jenneh]

beautiful mind -- its a certain type of therapy called exposure therapy..


look it up on the net and you will find lots and lots of information about it.


the trick is, your faced with these clips of ppl v*ing (or pictures e.t.c) and ur job is to look at them until u feel no ancxiety. its basically exposing u to ur phobia, in the hope that it will encourage it to go away.


Jen xxxxx

[rachel_81]

I've got that video! Its not pleasant but I can
watch it all the way through in fast forward! Good luck to you
with it. I'm going to try start watching mine again soon.</font>