my god

[sicpuppy]

I had a p* attack a half and houre ago The p* a* started all of the sudden and it was so powerfull that i nearly p*. my bf was with me and i literally threw him out of the house because i wanted to be alone ( because that's how i calm myself by being alone ) And he left confused and in 10 min i was ok. I started to feel like a freak , im crying so hard right now, i called him and apologize because i can't control myself. I feel like im having mental problmes and its so overwhelming that i dont know how i will live with this. He's ok, he says he understand but i know he doesnt and this is very weird for him too .I just hope he won't leave me for a NORMAL person ..i feel so bad ..i wanna punh/destroy myself ..

[twilightrose]

Are you okay now? Panic attacks totally suck. It's okay, your bf will hopefully get over it. Besides, there's really no such thing as normal. Everyone is different. How are you doing?

[sicpuppy]

im okey today and my bf seems ok too ..i just hope this will end someday ..

[elizam]

There is a sticky post in the private forum about panic attacks and techniques for dealing with them. They were given to me by a wonderful therapist who helped me learn to deal with my panic. Give it a read and see if you can try to implement some of the steps. They really do work and make life so much more manageable.