I guess you were all right. I v'ed 2 times last night,
and it wasnt even self induced, it was probably due to something not
agreeing with me right or maybe I had like a 24 hour thing, whatever it
was it was enough to cause me to actually v, who knows but it was not
as bad as I had thought, and right after it happened I just kept on
saying "what the hell have I been afraid of", just like I did that time
almost 16 years ago. However, the sad thing is, I am just as
emetophobic now as I was before it happened. The way I am now is the
way I have been for 25 years. What is my problem?? I know its not the
end of the world if it happens... yet my feelings are still the same. I
am in therapy now and I dont see him for 2 weeks but this is sad,
truely sad. If I know its not such a horrible thing then why am I
feeling like this????? Its so frusterating.



Miriam

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