I'm so sorry for cluttering the boards. I'm having a very rough time right now and I don't know who to turn to. I'm in so much emotional pain and I feel so trapped. My emetophobia is starting to get worse. I'm thinking about it constantly and visualizing it. I'm thinking about what it feels like and how it's hard to breathe while doing it. I'm thinking about everything associated with vomiting-before, during and after. I've been crying and crying for a few days now and the pain is getting worse and the fear is getting worse. I just want to lock myself away in a room with a toilet and my Atarax and never return. I'd rather just die, but I don't want to die. But living with this phobia makes me think I alreadyam dead. I'm a teenager and I should be out enjoying myself but instead I'm stuck in my house and I only leave when I HAVE to. I see all the other teenagers having a blast and I'm sitting on the floor curled in a little ball crying. I feel so paralized. This phobia is draining me of life.I hate it!!!


Edited by: mystikal star