*could be graphic*
Last week I saw a guy get sick on the side of the road and my heart
started pounding, my stomach did flipflops, and it took all the strength I
have to prevent myself from having an anxiety attack.
The other night, I was less than a foot away from my dog when he threw
up on my mom's bed. I didn't panic, I didn't get nervous stomach, I was
perfectly ok. I even helped to clean up. I saw the whole thing happen
and not a hint of anxiety.
So why is it that I can be inches away from a sick dog, pet my cat on the
back when he's getting sick, but I can't even see someone throw up for a
brief moment without freaking out?[img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]
It's so frustrating because for those moments when I'm ok, I know what
it's like to be 'normal'. I know that throwing up isn't THAT bad. Heck, I
can even think about that person throwing up without freaking out one
bit right now. Yesterday I went right by the spot without even realizing it.
But for some reason, when its actually right there in front of me, I can't
deal with it. Sage? Faith? Anyone have ANY clues as to what this could
be from?
Thanks so much!! [img]smileys/smilies_13.gif[/img]
Peace,
Allyson
\"So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains And we never even know we have the key\"
\"We are all just prisoners here of our own device\"