Frustrated!!!

[luvinmybaby07]

I really just need someone to talk to..i am an emetophobic (of coarse) and about the only one around where i live..it gets so frustrating cuz no one seems to understand the severity of how it is..ive been goin to a therapist for it but it doesnt seem to be helping..all we do is discuss anxiety and breathing techniques..i really feel that over time it is getting worse..things i used to love to do i avoid..i am a big roller coaster junkie (seriously) but now im not so sure i can ride them anymore..ive never gotten sick on a ride and i dont eat when i go to parks..but i just keep thinkin what if this is the time what if i get sick this time..its very miserable..and i can tell it irratates ppl when i get that way..i feel so alone in the matter..i have one son and never got sick (thanks to phenergan) durin my pregnancy and i want another child but i am way to scared of gettin sick in the second..i have stomach issues where my stomach is flipped and that makes me nauseas alot and im constantly freakin out and i live on phenergan..but i have v* after takin it one time and dont trust it much anymore..anyways it was nice to get these things off my chest..and hopefully someone will reply it would be nice to talk to someone who is goin through the same things...

[3littlebirds]

aww i know how you feel. and i know in the end i will be in that situation as well of wanting to have a baby but being too scared... i think what you have to do is weigh up what is really important to you. for me controlling emet is about separating useful avoidance and behaviour that is unnecessarily OCD. in other words, not letting emet control your life. so not going on a roller coaster isnt too major (for me), so i wouldnt beat myself up over that. similarly, obsessive handwashing when a family member is sick is also fair enough because it does help you avoid getting ill and is minimum effort. but choosing not to have a baby, or not to travel outside of my country- that sort of thing, that really limits your life- that's what i try and fight against because we get one life, it seems ridiculous to miss out on the big things. it's soo hard though.
you just have to focus on the fact that roller coasters, babies- you have got through it in the past, you can get through it again. you are a lot stronger than you think.
good luck x

[sage]

Welcome to the site! There are lots of people on here to talk with, and great information if you surf around.

[luvinmybaby07]

yea i try its just so upsetting to feel this way all the time..i literally had a panic attack in my sleep the other night..i had one of those crazy real dreams and i remember even the tiniest details..i had had a biscuit for breakfast and i was out of phenergan and someone was tryin to make me get on a plane..we were headin to florida for some reason..and i remember gettin this pamphlet with the statistics written in big bold red letters..one was 8% of planes crash and another was 50-60% of all people who ride on planes get very nauseated or vomited..then i had a panic attack..it was crazy..im tired of it controlling my life..

[sage]

Wow - your dream pamphlet was WAY OFF! lol!

The odds of being on a plane that crashes are 1 in 13,570,000(I googled it for ya) - as opposed to your dream-pamphlet which was 1 in 12.5!

And I think the odds of someone vomiting on a plane are pretty low too - about the same as in any crowded gathering (theatre, bus, school, etc.).

But don't worry - panic in dreams is normal for phobics. I do hope you can get some help soon - it's a terrible suffering this phobia.

[luvinmybaby07]

yes considerin im goin to the same theme park that we go to like 3 times every summer season and im so scared..im gonna take some anti nausea meds and somethin to calm my nerves..ive rode the rides many times but its always what if this is the one time it happens..i hardly eat when i go there cuz eatin makes me nauseas enough with the mal-rotation in my stomach..yea the sad thing is that a plane crash is not even on my mind doesnt effect me at all..im more terrified of gettin sick on a plane its sad..and whats the worst is we were askin would you rather questions and one was would you rather be stabbed or get sick and i said stabbed no joke i really would..im so terrified..plus im goin to the park with a long time friend who is leavin to go to cali and im so scared im gonna mess up her trip by me freakin out..ima take it slow and do the small rides first this time..i know i will be ok ive never had a prob with roller coasters before just get a tad dizzy and disoriented when i get off but never nauseas..cept the time i ate dip n dots and rode a ride..i had some serious acid indegestion..i think it scares me more cuz my stomach probs have gotten worse and i think my bodies gonna react diff..but ive always had these stomach probs its just recently gotten a diagnosis and a reason for them and that just freaks me out..ugh..

[missy77]

i know exactly how you feel. many, if not all, of us do. i myself am having a real hard time right now. my emet is really really bad. i recently found out that i am pregnant. i always said that i wanted kids. there was even a time that i was depressed because i was not getting pregnant. since i found out things have been so bad i can't explain how bad they are. i am terrified of getting morning sickness and having to v*. in fact i'm obsessed with it. that is all i have been thinking about lately that i am so depressed it is not funny. i have been crying everyday and sometimes it i am crying all day. my depression is so bad that i have thoughts in my head that i never thought i would have. the thoughts are so bad that i can't even post what they are. so i know how life hindering this phobia can be. i do not do alot of things that i use to do either. i don't eat at certain places and i avoid situations that can put me in danger of being sick. i also feel like i am the only person in the area that i live in that has this phobia. i try to explain it people and they look at me like i am crazy. i find comfort in this site and the people on it. the people here are very supportive and they know exactly what you are going through. i don't know what i would do without it! i hope you feel better soon.

[luvinmybaby07]

i know that feeling..that was all i thought about my whole pregnancy but i was lucky enough that my drs gave me nausea meds..yea everyones like i think u just need to get s* and ull be fine...at kd my mom was so mean to me cuz i rode two rides and started feelin really queesy and really didnt want to get s* on the rides so i didnt ride anymore and she was like just throw up and then ull feel better and ride..i was like i just wish u really understood how i really feel..its miserable..