Im panicking now...

[sarahx]

Oh god, ive just had my worst nightmare realised. My boyfriends mum came to stay tonight. We had dinner and then watched some tv then about 45mins go she got up and rushed to the loo. I panicked and went upstairs, im sure i heard her v*, my boyfriend said she just felt ill and that she hadnt v*ed but i think he was saying that to make me feel better. Im scared it might have been the dinner we all ate? Shes gone home now but im shaking like mad and im having he worst panic attack ive had for weeks. What if we all get ill now? Im petrified. I feel dizzy and sick, ive had some anti-nausea tablets and a diazepam but nothing seems to be helping. Why did this have to happen? It seems like in the space of 45mins my lifes been turned upside down again. Im so scared, why do we have to go through this? Why does it have to hurt so bad.


Im so horrible, i made her go home when she lives alone even though she was ill, and she is like 64 so i feel really bad. Why does this phobia make me turn into this other person?I just wantto be normal again and not have to feel this way.


Sorry for rambling but right now im so very scared.


Sarah xxxEdited by: sarahx

[jazz]

Sarah, you're not to blame for this. You could not have been able to help her even if she WAS sick, which she may well not have been.
I can assure you now, you do NOT feel sick, it is paranoia. You never know, she may be allergic to whatever you have for tea, just don't panic, and distract your mind.
Perhaps, if you still feel bad, you can phone her to see how she is?
Either way, im sure she would prefer to be on her own anyway, especially if she felt rotten.
Don't worry, and don't panic.

[terified girl]

There could be a number of reasons for why she felt ill, and you can't think it was the food because you would have felt sick too, and yeah you might be feeling sick now but its just your mind because your telling yourself you really are.....try to relax sweetie, take a deep breath and calm down, we're all here for you and keep talking if you need too......


Feel better and don't think too much about it


Sonia

[mbs730]

No NO NO DONT FEEL BAD!! I would have done the same, oh
gosh I would have, I feel for you so badly. Contageous or not, if
anyone v's, THATS IT! I CANT DEAL WITH IT



Miriam

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[maryp]

SARAH,


WHAT MEDS DO YOU TAKE FOR ANTI-NAUSEA? I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING MYSELF? HOPE YOU ARE OKAY. YOU'LL BE JUST FINE!


MARYP

[faith-marilyn]

hunny!! you're not goin to get sick! if u havent already then u wont now. it sounds as tho the meal just didnt agree with her or she could have had heartburn/wind which made her feel like she was goin to v*, which has happened to me a few times. you're NOT gunna get sick, i promise u, u and ur boyf wud already be ill if u wer goin to. dont feel bad, its not ur fault that u are going thru this, beep me on msn when u can we will chat ) if it makes u feel any better u cud ring her and see how she is doing? she cud also re assure u that she isnt ill it was just a one off thing )
love u lots xxxxxx

[sarahx]

Thanks guys xxxxxxx


Im still shaking ( My boyf foned his mum up and she said she was ok ish, she doesnt think it was the dinner that made her feel ill. I just cant help but panic, and now i dont wanna see her again and that is mean.


I dont know, i was feeling quite good today, looking forward to gettin therapy and stuff and now i just feel scared, weak and lonely.


Thanks for being there guys espesh faith-m xxxx


Sarah xxx

[mbs730]

Dont beat yourself up for feeling that way, I would have
reacted the SAME way! I am more phobic of others being sick and dont
want to see them again either if I know they have! Uggh



Miriam

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[sarahx]

I know what u mean miriam, i think if i had to choose between seeing someone v* or myself v*ing then i would choose myself????? i think... lol


Maryp, i take stemetil for nausea, its great stuff!


Sarah xxx

[faith-marilyn]

) hope you're good hunny xxxxx

[mbs730]

Same here, I would chose myself too!!!!!!! Its not
pleasant but I know I dealt with it not too badly on Friday night,
doesnt mean I wont get freaked out again if the possibility is there
but if someone else is about to v, FORGET IT!! I AM FLYIN OUTTA THERE!</font>

[eyecandi512]

Hi, I'm Danielle--I'm new here as of a few minutes ago. I, of course am an emet...hardcore. I panic just about every day. I also have OCD. Anyway, I have a similar experience to share. my parents were away and I was watching my sister and her 2 friends for the weekend. My boyfriend came home from the bar compoletely oblierated out of his mind. He was so drunk I dont know how he got home driving. He layed down with me for a second b/c I was already sleeping, then he ran upstairs and began v*ing with such fury I began to cry and shake horrribly. MY sister is afraid of v* too, but not so much, so she was freaking out and he just kept going at it. I didnt know what to do. He came out of the bathroom and dirtied and I fainted. He wasreally really sick and I made him clean the bathroom, with 2 bottles of clorox and Mr. Clean antibacterial. I found out he got sick in the shower and I didnt shower for 3 days. I went to the bathroom outside that night and wore gloves the next morning int he bathroom. All night I stayed awake and made him sleep in the bathroom b/c I was afraid he wasd going to get sick again. Every time he got sick, instead of helping him I ran away and cried and shoke, I threw tennis balls at the door in anger asking him how he could possibly do this to me and telling him i hated him so much. I called the police and the ambulance b.c. I was afraid he was so sick, but couldnt go near him to check if he was ok.....


I love him so much and it killed me to see him like that, he always helpos me when I feel sick.....much I freaked out.


Now it is a week sicne that episode and I'm still panicking every day, Ihear the noises in ym head and still smell the smell. I have hardly eaten and I gag when I have to shower in my bathroom.


This is a bad one......any comments or help? By the way, I've had this fear ever since I could REMEMBER, whenever I feel sick I'll call an ambulance, honestly. It's so out of control but nobody I go to can treat it and I've been inpatient and out for numeroud problems.


Thanks, sorry or such as long post,


Danielle

[sarahx]

Awww danielle... makes me feel stupid seen as my experience wasnt so bad compared to yours.


My boyfriends doesnt drink now, and if he does want to go out he stays at his mums house for the night incase he gets sick. Are you on any tablets for any of this? I hate it that theres not much i can do to help, but im always here to talk )


After i saw my boyfriend v* about 2 yrs ago (which started my phobia off) Im forever asking him how hes feeling etc, its a nightmare.


Sarah xxx