a personal question....

[mystikal star]

Has this phobia ever made any of you feel suicidal?


Dont worry. I'm NOT suicidal.

[beknasty]

Nope...but I've wanted to die after like 12 consistent hours of nausea
n no sleep...but that's as far as that's gone.

[u4ia]

Sometimes, when things get really bad, When I cant stop thinking about it, or other things that make me feel panicky, sometimes it gets so overwhelming, I think to myself "if i could blow my head off i could stop thinking about this" (yaha little rough)


But it hasnt been that bad in a while, I am learning breathing techniques, and affirmations to calm me down, I am learning some really interesting things about panic attacks and what happens physically.


ps. im not suicidal currently either

[spilled_milk]

I'm not suicidal, but sometimes when I'm in a bad situation that has to do with emet, like when it REALLY seems like i'm gonna v* or if I'm so scared,I think, just kill me now. But thats really it, and it goes away after the situation ends.


<3 Anya--

[sarahx]

Ive felt suicidal before but i dont think it was to the point that i ouldve actually done it? I sometimes think it would be easier but i cant give in to emet i just cant!! But also when im panicking i think god if i just die now then it will be gone. But i havet felt 'suicidal' for a while.


Sarah xxx

[jazz]

on occasion.. it hasn't been an ongoing thing. iv just felt so frustrated with myself that i will cry for ages, wishing i could be normal like all my friends!
im no longer like that, but over the summer i was really upset a lot of the time.

[r311dude]

I've actually once almost went through with it. I was such a stupid, idiotic 14 year old kid. Luckily literally last minute I decided it was the wrong thing to do and haven't had the same thoughts since. Very emotional time for me, but i'm sooooooooo glad I didn't do it, I may fail my tests, but I will never fail at life![img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[2jo2]

Same with me, it's been where emet stuff has gotten really bad and I don't even feel comfortable being in my own skin, and I thought how that would be the only way to stop the emet thoughts. Soon after this one incident that was like that, I think the next week I went to the doctor and got put on anti-depressants, and those thoughts have never happened again.


No problem is worth suicide.

[bootyangel]

I've never felt suicidal but... I have felt like sometimes I'd rather die than feel this etc... but I'm scared of dying so... no.

[hippychick]

I could never ever kill myself, I couldnt do that to my mum, her heart would break (that not me being bigheaded btw lol)


However there have been times when i have thought that i wanna die because i couldnt stand the fear and the panic anymore, i just wanted it all to go away. I'm glad I'm still here though, there is so much i still have to see and do!

[terified girl]

Let's just say the only reason I am alive today is because of my mother and brother, and of course now, my bf of 4 yrs, because I love them so much I couldn't put them thru that pain on purpose, if not yes I think I would definately do it, and I don't feel like I' m a loser or a quitter but just someone who's suffered enough and knows that she will probably suffer the rest of her life with it.....So I guess yes I am suicidal but I wouldn't because of my family.

[izzybee]

I dont think I've ever got to the stage whree I actually want to physically kill myself - althouhg there are times where things overwhelm me so much that I get extreamly depressed and would rather not be around. I call it my 'death mood'! lol I feel so awful when that happenes. But I dont think that I would ever get so bad that I would actually kill myself ~(hopefully anyway)

[sweetfreak]

Yes, I have been suicidal sometimes but it has nothing to do with the emet.

[carlita1652]

yes, i actually have been suicidal. it was because of how TERRIble my severe OCD was getting, and also my emet. I remember standing at the top of the stairs in front of my mom saying that i would jump. i was only like 8 years old.

[carlita1652]

i can't imagine doing that again...

[Jenneh]

yes - iv been suicidal loads and loads of times. some times more serious than others. most recent time, friday.


Jen xxx

[alliecat]

I haven't really wanted to kill myself, however, I sometimes wish that I were dead instead of having to deal with this... I have wanted to cut myself though, so that I could focus on something like that, rather than feeling ill all the time. I ended up in the ER because I was so freaked out from my thought patterns.

[Melikasa]

Not suicidal no. Really depressed a few years back and before I met my husband I use to take a few risks kind of hoping something would happen to me so I would get some sympathetic attention.
I am great now I would NEVER do that to any of my family especially now that I have a son that could lift any spirit.

[HDogg]

When I was a senior in high school--1998, I was the most suicidal. I felt like I had no friends. I couldn't relate to many people in my graduating class. My best friend was an exchange student in Finland that year, so I had to deal with life without her. Many times I thought about slitting my wrists in the bathtub. I figured it would be less messy than shooting myself and leaving an even bigger mess for my family to clean up. As depressed as I was, there was always something holding me back. I had a faith in Jesus, and I knew that someday, somehow, life would get better if I kept believing. And it did. In college, I had little anxiety my first year, I began to get along better with my family, and I began to develop self-confidence.


As bad as life was in my earlier years, I'm glad that I never took that final step. Even though emet has gotten worse over the years, overall my lifehas gotten better. I wouldn't trade it for anything. A life of nothingness, being in hell, or existing in a worse life (whatever you believe happens after life), is much worse than any day in my current emetophobia-filled life. There is so much to be grateful for. Even if your personal life sucks, remember that at least we live in free countries, where we can express ourselves, vote for responsible, non-dictatorial leaders, and believe in whatever hope for the future that we choose.


Always remember that there is always SOMETHING to be grateful for!