i dont feel lke iv had a proper talk to any of you on here for ages....


i hope u dont mind but i really need to fill u guys in on some things going on atm for me... cos im getting really stressed out atm.


firstly, have any of u heard of/think u hav this disorder?
“A<I style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">nother part of the body which is often the focus for disordered thinking is the bowels. Bowel obsessions have long been recognised in clinical settings and usually present as an overwhelming fear of losing bowel control in public. [[/I]i guess it relates to my “overwhelming fear“ of losing control and vomiting in public as well!] <I style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">Disagreement exists as to their proper classification along the spectrum of anxiety disorders but bowel obsession has been conceptualised both as a variant of obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) and as a symptom of social phobia, panic disorder and agoraphobia. … Researchers assume that the variant involving bowel function is more common than that involving the bladder. [[/I]yet, the one involving the bladder is the one I have! Not the bowel obsession] <I style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">… Associated anxieties range from possible public humiliation to perceived unavailability of bathrooms outside the home. … Given societies reticence about speaking openly about bodily functions, it is not surprising that people with this problem should be reluctant to discuss it… “[/I]
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please could you somehow contct me/let me know if u can understand me... because the above is sumthing iv been suffering since i was born, and im finding it hard trying to understand it by myself.

secondly, im seeing my social worker on monday, and for those of you who dont know the situation, whilst shes been awy for 2 weeks, i had a task to think about whether i wanted to leave home or just put up with the way things are. thing is, i haven't got to any kinda decision at all. evryday my mind changes, and i kinda wish i wasnt given this option, then i wont have spent the last 4 weeks debating it in my head.

thirdly, because of flipping emet, im missing a rather important biology trip -- which means instead of doing biology coursework, i have to do a biology exam. this is putting more pressure on me social phobia wise (i cant be bothered to explain why, it just is) and im irritated that emet is still affecti