Broken

[sbias]

A few days ago in the bar and wire, a guy lost three of fingers, what a way to start huh? I haven't talked about it much really, in fact I am not sure if I have mentioned it to anyone, ifI wouldn't have stopped to dick off, and be my usualgoofy self I would have noticed that the cable was wound loose. But I had to stop and play and tell a joke further down the line. Instead of doing my job, someone got hurt.


Last night had a horrific panic attack, lasted forever it seemed, the shakes, v scare, the whole big production. Went on from 6ish till at least 10. I had Janet from next door over, she watched the Godfather while I told her I had some work to do, stayed in the back and had a nice fat attack, (She is aware of my emet.) I came out and watched the Godfather 2 with her, while she had a few drinks and we talked.


I hit on her, I hit on her hard, and one thing led to another, I just didn't want to be alone. Drew has been staying with his mother as of late, he has a new friend and they are impossible to pull apart. I was tired of staying at home alone. I don't want to frequent bars, and there isn't much else to do around here at night. So I ended up having Janet spend the night.


I feel like total sh*t, and I could tell this morning that she was very uncomfortable too. I really screwed up and have feeling terrible as of late, now I throw this on top.


Any Advice?


Stephen

[sarahx]

Aww man, i dont know what to say? Try not to beat urself up about it. It wasnt your fault that someone got hurt, it couldve happenes anyway. HUGS xxxxx


Im sure things will be fine between you and janet. I dont blame you for not wanting t be alone, its only natural. I wsh i could be of more help ( sorry.


Sarah xxx

[mbs730]

Sorry Stephen, I dont know what to say but again dont
blame yourself for that happening. I also think that eveything will be
okay between you both. Try to hang in there.



Miriam

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