thinking of leaving...

[mbs730]

Sorry I am really in not the greatest mood right now but
I also get the feeling that a lot of people are just tired of me and my
stupid comments. If so thats fine, I wont post here anymore. I feel so
truely alone right now its not even funny...wonder if that is how its
meant to be at times.. my family doesnt understand, my husband doesnt
even understand me as I thought I had educated these people about the
phobia. But no one really understands, not that I can blame them about
how I feel, its not just about this stupid phobia though, its
everything else, well I'll leave if I am just making everyone roll
their eyes, take care



Miriam

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[faith-marilyn]

no miriam of course ur not, if anyone is goin to understand u here its us, of course we are not gettin tired of u *hug* we all know how difficult it is, and even tho others dont understand u as much as u wud like them to, sumtimes u just have to tell urself that that is how it is, and rely on urself a little bit more. running away is never the answer it only prolongs things and makes them worse, never makes problems go away.
we are always here if u need us, well i know that i am neway and a lot of other people are too.
hope u feel better soon
xxxx

[Jenneh]

i KNEW this would happen


Miriam -- i felt so so bad writing that reply to ur previous post -- but i was truly only tryin to help you. if i was sick of ur postings i wudnt have bothered to reply or read the whole post wud i??


please stay with us -- ur gnna make it harder for urself by leaving -- dont do it. i need u here as well.


Jen xxxxxxxxxx

[wing]

No no no! You dont have to leave. I dont think you bother anyone! Its alright to get mad it makes you feel better after. If people didnt want you here then they wouldnt reply back right? Oh sorry cant make this longer my cousin wants me to go out with her right now. But its your decision if you want to leave but i dont think anyone minds you really! I dont think anyone is tried of you but sorry if i'm not making sense i'm trying to get my point across in 1 minute. You can ignore me if you want ehehe..

[jazz]

i really don't want to see you leave! your posts have been inspiring to be perfectly honest, and i don't think anyone has any desire to see you leave.
i often think im bein a pain in the ar*e posting all the time! But you really shouldn't think like that! Im sure everyone here really enjoys your input, i know i do.

[sarahx]

miriam, dont stop posting!!! Im always posting on here and its usually silly things! I dont always get time to reply to everyones posts but i do read them all. I understand how down you are at the moment, believe me im feeling very alone at the moment too. But we have to stick together, everyone on here totally understands you and sympathises, so pls dont leave us!!!!


HUGS xxxxxxxxxx


Sarah xxx

[youngemet222]

No! Don't leave! We all have our days when we need to vent on here. Your comments are not stupid. If anyone should leave, it should be me because of that stupid thing 1-2 months ago I did (If you people can remember.... you know....the whole "unnessacery information" thing or whatever) Sorry I brought that up, but everyone on here probably dislikes me because of that. Don't leave. Nobody has any reason on here to get tired of you. Me- well, that is a different story.


Lizzy.

[r311dude]

You shouldn't leave. This forums is a place to get help and one way of getting help is posting your thoughts and feelings. You can never over-post, well unless you made one post every minute of the day [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]. But you get my point, the only thing that can happen from leaving this board is less people to interact with that understand what you are dealing with. So keep on posting and just writing about your emet can make you feel better, that works for me sometimes.


PS - Youngemet, no one deserves to leave. Edited by: r311dude

[sarahx]

youngemet, you shouldnt leave because of what happened, i was a lot to blame ad im sorry for that [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]. Everyone has a right to be here and to post what they want, if ppl were bored of other ppl, well thy just wouldnt reasd the posts etc, so dont worry!!!!


Sarah xxx

[party_boi3423]

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE!!!!!


Seriously, please don't leave. Your presence on this forum is so valued and everyone loves having you here. You're a great person and no one should ever feel they are not worthy. If you feel like you've got no one, my MSN/EMAIL is [email protected] Im always happy to talk to you or anyone else! God bless ya! From, Chris

[mbs730]

Thanks everyone, I feel a little better just by reading
all of you replies but... I'm still really depressed and been crying.
Maybe I'll go try to sleep or something, I am also overtired.</font>

[Jenneh]

Miriam *****hugs***** if u feel up to it -- come on AIM and we'll have a chat.


i dont lke to see you, or anyone like this. we wil get thru this.


Jen xxxxx

[mystikal star]

Miriam, you CANNOT leave this forum. Nobody is tired of your posts or comments. You are allowed to pour your heart to us. You've helped so many people and this forum wouldn't be the same without you. When we talked a few nights ago I cannot even begin to tell you how much you touched me. Your words were so kind, and so true. I was feeling quite hopeless when I started talking to you and when the conversation ended I felt so much better and I knew everything would be okay and that even though it may seem like I'm alone--I'm really not. I know it sounds cheesy but it's true. You can't leave this forum. We all love you. I'll be online tonight if you want to talk. Screename is kraziqtashes. Add me to your buddy list and pour your heart out to me ANYTIME you want. ((hugs)) Edited by: mystikal star

[sarahx]

Miriam... do you not have msn?? Anyway my AIM is loopysarah77 so add me to your buddy list too and chat whenever you want to!!!!


Sarah xxx

[r311dude]

My AIM is r311dude..who woulda thought?!? hah I'm usually on..but sometimes I can't respond to my IM's cause i'm busy with hw..but yea..if you ever need someone to talk to I'll make time.

[mbs730]

Thanks, I know I have the support here, I just am tired
and depressed....but I guess I just have to accept a few things, and
like I told my mother yesterday, I know life just isnt fair sometimes
and I dont regret ONE bit not liking her because she v's so much. Heck
I even called her a b*tch to my brother (he is not talking to me
anymore btw and the sad thing is, since he made his choice I couldnt
care less), I dont regret doing that either because its not like I said
something out of anger. I meant what I said.</font>

[youngemet222]

Is the only reason why you don't like your SIL is that she vomits a lot? Well, if I'm correct, pregnant women who have morning sickness have little control over it. It is not like she's doing it on purpose, right? I now you said you have other problems with your SIL, but do you think you could ever talk her into using anti-nausea wristbands? Those can be used for motion sickness and morning sickness. I do not think you should hate her just because she vomits, but I understand a little. Now, the other reasons you hate her, go ahead. You are talking about your SIL vomiting a lot, right? Now, if she sits around and trys to be near you on purpose when she vomits, now there is a reason to really dislike her. Try not to let your SIL or anyone else ruin life for you.


Lizzy

[Melikasa]

Aww hun there is nothing wrong with your posts. There is no reason at all to leave. EVERY ONE of us has made a post that we think afterwards was kind of silly, wierd, nonsensical.
It is easy to misread something or read it a certain way when you are tired and fristrated. I do hope that you have changed your mind and decide to stay.
I would hate to think that someone HATED me when I had morning sickness. There were a few times that I didn't even really feel it starting. I am emet so I was able to do all I could to make sure that I wasn't sick at all, but for a non emet it feels SO MUCH better when you do. It is ALMOST instant nausea relief so you can go about your life again. I discovered this when we were moving, but it didn't make it any easier to allow myself to get sick.
Does she know about all the options out there to help her with the nausea? Big snuggly hugs hun. Chin up and turn that frown upside down.

[arcky]

Me too. When I was pregnant with my daughter I had horrible morning sickness for a good 4 months. I think the term 'morning sickness' is dumb. Where did they ever come up with that? Anyone have any clue? 'cause in my case it was more like morning- afternoon- and evening sickness. I constantly gagged/retched through out those yucky days. At times I had even vomited. I also vomited when I was in labour with Morgan. Thatwas a complete nightmare for me-allof it. I'm sure you have other reasons to dislike your sil other than the fact that she has morning sickness. Altho I kind of understand where you are coming from as far as disliking someone who is sick often. I could not be around someone who is ill all the time. Whenever you are down, feel free to email me anytime- [email protected]I also have yahoo messenger- fysteegal97


Blessings, Arcta

[mbs730]

For your information youngemet, NO that is NOT the only
reason I hate her so much! Havent you been reading my other posts about
the horrid things she has done???? I strongly suggest that you do, then
you'll see why I have a VALID reason for hating her! She has ruined ALL
of us, insulting ME big time. She is a horrible, horrible person. When
we thought she would have lost her uterus because she contracted
chlamidya (however its spelled) and developed a massive fibroid as a
result, I felt sorry for her (stupid move on my part, she is good at
getting people to feel sorry for her since she is the biggest drama
queen around) because of KNOWING how hard it is going through
infertility troubles.... before we knew whether she was going to keep
her uterus or not I made the BIGGEST generous offer to her and my
brother EVEN THOUGH I hated her back then... I said IF she were to lose
her uterus I would make the sacrifice by carrying their kids for them!!
They would have not only found a surrogate easily but would have saved
15K at least! But what does she do with my offer? She throws it at me
and whines that I was showing off that I am able to carry children
while she may never!! Well she had a successful surgery back in January
and lo and behold she is carrying a child now.... thank goodness none
of that turned out to be necessary. She also put my family UNDER LOADS
of stress by wanting things HER way and of course she got it... and
also stole their money.... and so much more... the list goes on and on
and on. Now yeah I know I ALSO dont like her because she v's but my
goodness that is NOT THE ONLY REASON! What kind of person do you think
I am??? My grandmother used to v a lot since she had hiatus hernia and
I ADORED her! It still bothered me that she did that a lot but she was
nice about it and never did it around me. She had a heart of gold! She
was such a wonderful grandmother that I was able to in most cases look
PAST her v'ing unless she did it while I was around. Then I avoided
her. I admit I have this resentment towards those who v a lot but if
they are good people that doesnt stop me from liking them either. In
case you havent known I am A MILLION TIMES more phobic of others v'ing
than I am of myself doing it.... you know hate and fear are so alike
right??? So in other words NO that is NOT the only reason I hate her! I
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[sbias]

You know I am sitting here reading this, and shaking my head. Tonight I put my son in the bath, and had dinner with him, we joked and played the whole time, before he finally asked to go home. I kept a smile on my face and took him home, not asking him why or anything. (He doesn't want to stay here at night. I have no idea why.) So I came home to my empty home.


I have to agree with MBS on this one. Tonight I kinda reached out to a few people, and got my hand bit in the process. I was doing so well, the divorce, the fact my son only wants VERY limited time with me, the girl next door that as of this evening hates my guts. (Don't ask me why, I went to talk to her and there she is with her ex-boyfriend.), I'm having attacks constantly, had one just a little while ago. I don't want to go through this anymore, I don't want to be afraid anymore, I don't want to lose gobs of weight again. I want to be normal, I want to live a life without fear.


I think I need to take some time and go for serious therapy. Something drastic, no matter the cost, no matter what. I need this gone. Tonight I was speaking to two people I talk to quite frequently from here, and yes I was venting a tad, and no I am not dropping names, "Well Stephen your alone cause you chose to be.", and began to rip my ass, I understand people have bad days but come on, they knew I was in pain, I had just spent 10 minutes telling them how Drew not staying with me was killing me, I have never been as cold or as crappy to anyone from here ever. Anytime anyone from these forums have asked for my help or advice I have listened and come running. The other person pretty much told me to leave them alone.


I'm done, I'm out. I love some of the people I have met on here and wouldn't exchange you for the world. But I am mood swinging constantly, and I am no help to anyone. I don't think I have ever gone through depression before, and I am now. I was sad about my emet sure, but I always had someone to pick me up, and now it seems I have nobody. I hope each and everyone of you can break your emet, and win, I honestly do. I think several of you (Of the ones I had the pleasure to talk to.) have suffered long enough, and you deserve peace.


Thanks,


Stephen

[youngemet222]

Gosh.....I didn't think that was the only reason you hate her. Actually, I am quite offended you got angry at me for that. I NEVER said that was the only reason you hated her.....I was just asking. In an earlier post I had in this topic, I said, "I know you have other problems with your SIL". Didn't you read all of it?

[youngemet222]

Oh yeah....and on an earlier post on this topic,you said, "I don't regret ONE bit not liking her because she v's so much". I was ASKING, not assuming.


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Lizzy

[harmonygirl72]

Stephen,


Are you leaving now, too? Does that mean we can't chat anymore? And you're not coming to Chicago for that pizza?


Mary

[crazybeautiful]

Oh my god. This is getting out of hand, how much more drama can one website have? This is a site for EMETOPHOBIA and frankly, lately I haven't felt that I've had much support. I know theres off topic threads here and there, and I've even made some...but COME ON. This just seems so immature to me, the fighthing, getting offended over trivial things. Why don't we leave our personal lives (that are extremely touchy subjects) out of conversation on here, unless we can take advice about it? Sorry if this sounded rude, but...Now I'M thinking about not coming back, it just doesn't feel welcoming anymore.


Maybe I'll take a break and come back later when this has all died down. Hopefully it all gets sorted out.


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[terified girl]

Wow talk about drama, drama, drama......


And I thought I was the only one in a soap opera with my family!!! I posted too last night hoping to at least get 1 calming reply, instead I got 21 viewers and o replies....not bad, eh?


Oh well, I've always said, depend on yourself, nobody else!

[crazybeautiful]

Wow talk about drama, drama, drama......


And I thought I was the only one in a soap opera with my family!!! I posted too last night hoping to at least get 1 calming reply, instead I got 21 viewers and o replies....not bad, eh?


Oh well, I've always said, depend on yourself, nobody else!

I agree completely, I come for support, and my threads get viewed and no one really replies! I read your thread today, Terrified and hopefully you see iT!

[2jo2]

But you know what? There could be alot of people who lurk around the website, and are just "guests". For whatever reason, maybe they're not comfortable posting yet, I did that for a couple weeks before I started posting, to get a feel for everyone and stuff.

[sarahx]

Nobody can leave pls dont leave anyone!!!! Sob :'(


I know personal problems can get a bit heated when they are discussed but sometimes its directly related to our emet so we need to talk about it. Personally i have no problem reading about evryones problems and tring my best to help/reassure/talk etc whenevr i can. Everyone here is so understanding and i couldnt imagine coping as well with emet without u guys.


Maybe we all should make more of an effort to reply to people even if its just for a bit of encouragement or to say that you are thinkingof them so ppl dont feel alone??? I don know, but i dont want anyone to leave, espesh miriam and stephen u two are fab xxxxxx


Sarah xxx

[mbs730]

Okay, I'm sorry if I came down hard on anyone.
Unfortunately I am SICK, I have the FLU, not v'ing, not even n but I
feel like sh*t! I feel like a Mac Truck ran me over, seriously... I
felt really tired yesterday and therefore my mood has been just awful.
Youngemet, I'm sorry if I had offended you okay, but I am going to be
quite frank. Sometimes you tend to say things that I am sure you don't
mean and that has upset people in the past. I am just as guilty of it
too but we all have to think before we say things that could
potentially upset someone. But maybe I didn't word things properly
either. I'm very sorry this got out of hand, it was not meant to.
As far as the replies go, well sometimes people look around but dont
know how to reply to it. I am like that too. Sometimes if someone posts
something that you dont know how to reply to, that is what happens. I
used to take it as an insult but I have come to realize that and thats
fine. Anyway I'm feeling yucky and will read a few more posts, then I
am off to bed again. My husband went down to his mother's with the kids
so I can sleep.



Miriam

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