I'm new to the site and have read tons of posts and figured it's time for my own...

I'm an on and off emet. I've had it for about 10 years and it absolutely controls my life...I hate it! I'm afraid of V in all aspects...myself, others, seeing it...etc.

I know people talk about me behind my back...others have told me. "She washes her hands a million times" "She doesn't really need to clean with bleach" "She's germophobic" Mind you some of these comments have come out of my own mother's mouth. I've tried telling her and other family members about this phobia and no one gets it...I don't get it...some people are afraid of spiders, some mice, some heights...I'm afraid of V! It's plain and simple...why don't they get it?!

I sometimes wonder if maybe I really am crazy...I wish I could just say to myself "Who cares if I V?" and do it like people without this phobia. I wish I could go out and not worry about who might have a SV. My son starts school this year and I'm TERRIFIED he will come home with one...and I know he will, it's just a matter of time. I wish I didn't constantly worry about this, always telling people to wash their hands, disinfecting, cleaning with bleach...UGH![img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img]