I am lost- today was a disaster

[arcky]

I really don't know what to do. I know I am in very bad shape, nonetheless unable to help myself. My daughter was supposed to come back last night. I told Keith, my ex to keep her for another day. I want her back home so badly but I do not want her seeing me like this. I woke up this morning feeling just horrible. I phoned my dr's officeto make an appointment which I had gotten right away. All I could manage to do was get down a little bit of applesauce and water. Even that was a challenge. When the gagging started, that is when I had to stop. Was so afraid I was going to vomit. On the drive to the dr I felt so nauseous. I was shaking, crying and just knew something bad was going to happen. I parked the car, got out and ran over to the side of the building. I couldn't stop gagging and retching. For a moment there I felt something was going to come up. I thought my world was going to crash. I felt it in my throat and it even sounded like something was there. Altho I didn't vomit. I have no idea how I managed not to throw up after all of that. After that occurred, I stood there with my eyes closed. Was so afraid I was going to pass out. I could not go inside of the building and somehow managed to get back home in one piece. It is a miracle I did not end up in some kind of accident. I felt very dizzy and light-headed. The moment I got home I began bawling my eyes out. I phoned my ex at work and told him what happened. He told me that if this doesn't stop he is going to take me to the hospital. I begged him not to. I cannot go there. I know I'll vomit and see someone vomit at the hospital.


He is keeping Morgan until things settle down which is best. The thing that frightens me most is I have no idea when that is going to happen. I have ruined the poor thing as it is. I can't have her around me being like this. I feel awful, I look awful, I can't stop shaking and I am scared. I know his intentions are good but I am so afraid of going to the hospital. What do I do? What am I going to do? I am scared. I'm lost and I haven't done any work today because of this. Why is this happening to me? I'm going to go lie down because I am really tired. Help :-(


Blessings, Arcta

[sarahx]

Arcta, i wish i was there to help you throught this tough time. I think you really should see a doctor, get one to come out and see you, you really need to be seen this has been going on for long enough. Im glad that ur daughters in safe hands for now, but i hope you get better really soon so u have her back home with you. I know tings are hard right now but you have to hang on in there, keepcoming on here someone will always be here to talk to you. ou are in my thoughts, if you need to talk my msn addy is [email protected]


Sarah xxx

[clairethebear]

You really must seek medical help. You are obviously very poorly and you need some treatment to get better. Everyone on the site has been urging you to seek medical help. You don't have to carry on like this alone. Please please get help. Call the doctor out to you.

[jazz]

Aw, arcky, this must be really tough for you.
It sounds as though you're not completely over the worst yet, and you're probably getting worked up becauseof your frustration about not seeing your daughter.. either way, allow yourself some re-couperation time. you need to keep for fluids up, and only when you feel better should you contemplate trying to settle into a routine. this has obviously been very disturbing for you, and im so sorry that you still find it difficult.
Sarah has the right idea, get a doctor out to see you, and in the meantime, keep yourself busy as hard as that may sound.
Have a loong sleep, and when you feel better, you might consider making another appointment. Well done for trying to eat something, I think itis unlikely you will vomit now

[2jo2]

Arcky, I am so sorry you're still not well. I do urge you to try and do everything in your power to see a doctor. Something else is causing this and I'd hate to see you suffer more than you have to.

[Galadriel]

Hey there!


Man I am so sorry your having such a rough time. It sounds like it could be a real bad virus, or mebe you got food poisoning or something like that.I agree with the others, see a doctor! Tell the doc how anxious you feel about going to the hospital, and if you DID have to go maybe the doc could make sure you get something in you to calm your nerves and prevent you from feeling like your going to be sick. But make sure when you go you voice these concerns to him/her. I hope it works out, Im sorry your having such a bad time of this.

[kellybean]

Aren't you more scared of what is going on with your body then going to the hospital? The worst that can happen there is that they can help you feel better. You really should seek medical help or you will get worse!!

[mbs730]

YOU NEED MEDICAL HELP! Call someone please!



Miriam

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[arcky]

I found a service where a dr can come out to your home. Called a dr to come outto see me. It took him a while to show up. During the time Iwaited for him was rough for me. I didn't really vomit but I gagged and then spit-up some bile in my hand. That was enough to scare me. Altho since I didn't really vomit, knowing that made me feel a little better. I was a little calmer once he showed up. Because I am badly dehydrated and my electrolytes are messed, he demanded that I go to the hospital. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]


I panicked after he told me this. I told him what I was afraid of. He wasn't overly caring.Said it was more important that I get my body back intogear than me vomiting- or seeing someone else vomit. This is scaring me to death but I can't deny it to myself any longer. I should go and get an IV to rehydrate me. I am going to have to go. My ex took Morgan to his mother's. He is on his way here to takeme to the hospital. People I am scared to do this. I am so afraid I am going to vomit there. I want to stay home so badly. Nonetheless he won't let me back out. I know in my heart I can't do it either. I just wanted to let you know this- in case I am not online for a while. Just so no one worries. Thank you for caring. It's nice knowing that there are people out there that know how I am feeling. Please pray that I don't vomit over there, I am so afraid that is going to happen.


Blessings, Arcta

[spilled_milk]

I think its really good that a doctor came to see you, because now you can get re-hydrated and start feeling better! And I'm really happy about the step that you're taking about going to the hospital, I'm terrified of hospitals, and really don't know if I could do what you are doing. You are so brave! I hope you feel better really soon, and I will be thinking of you!


&lt;3 Anya--

[confused]

I am so sorry that you feel so bad, but I am glad to hear that you are going to the hospital. It sounds like you are in really bad shape, and the hospital is where you need to be right now. I know it's going to be hard and scary, but you will feel so much better. I hope that you have no anxiety while you are at the hospital. Take care, and rest up! I hope you feel better.


Danielle

[wing]

I'm so sorry that is happening. [and i'm a bit late] I'll pray for you tonight, but i'm glad you went to the hospital. I know you'll be okay. We're here for you. ^^

[Galadriel]

Hey there!


Man I understand totally about being scared to go to the hospital. I wish I could make you not afraid. You can get thro this though. I know you can. Im sorry this is all hitting you so hard right now. Hopefully all that they will do is rehydrate you some, and they can give you anti-emetics so that you dont feel nauseas. I really feel for you, I can imagine how scared you must feel. Your in my thoughts and prayers definately. I hope they are able to fix you up quick and help you feel better here soon!! Thinking of you!!

[eyecandi512]

I am so sorry you are going through all of this and my heart goes out to you and your family. I too agree you need to consult your doctor on this matter. If you do not eat, you are only going to get sicker and driving in that condition-I definitely would not advise any more. Do not worry about your daughter right now, you need to focus on yourself. Children are quite resilient and she's probably having fun with your ex husband. Just get yourself healthy again!


If you need anything, ANYTHING at all....please please please PM me or IM me at eyecandi512 on aol.


Blessings to you, Danielle

[sarahx]

Ive only just seen ur post (


So i dont know when u will read this. Im glad u are gettin help and i know its scary going to the hospital but u just have to concentrate on getting better. I am thinkin about you and hoping u stay well and dont get sick again. You are in my thoughts.


sarah xxx