i tripped and fell over

[sarahx]

i just knew that things were too good to be true. lately ive been feeling great, hardly any nausea, been going out, havent been feeling depressed. Then today happens. I woke up witha a bad cold, then i started feeling really sick. Ive hardly eaten all day cos i feel so sick. Im scared that cos ive been feeling ok that its my time to vomit now? I know that must sound looney? Im so depressed all of a sudden. Its like ive fallen back into my black hole. I really thought i had got onto the road to recovery at long last. But it doesnt look like it now.


Im sorry for rambling but im so down right now. I had a fight with my boyfriend cos i was so moody and down. We are ok now but im scared hes gonna leave me. I mean hes only 21 and weve been together for four years already. And ive had emet for the last yrs nearly. Its a lot to deal with. Idont think i could live without him right now. Then again i think if he leaves me i dont hae to worry about him being sick. But i need him. I dont want to lose him cos of this stupid emet. Why is this happening to me? to all of us?


If i had a wish, id get rid of all health problems for everyone. Im so tired of feeling this way, im tired of emet, im tired of being scared, i just want to be normal, to be me again. Thankyou to everyone who read this post, sorry it was a little boring [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]


Sarah xxx

[emmab]

Sorry you feel like that today. I seem to be going really well for a week or so too and then I start feeling bad and depressed again. Does your boyfriend support you with emet as my boyfriend trys to but has never voluntarily read anything about it.
I know this sounds silly when you are feeling like you do but you need to thin positively and think that when you wake up tomorrow or the next day you will feel better.

[mbs730]

I'm really sorry to hear that Sarah. I have a terrible
cold too and feel kinda blah myself. I had the flu before and now I
have a cold, how fun I know how it feels to be in a fight with your
SO, its horrible. I hope things get better for you soon... sorry I am
not much of a help here, feel kinda icky myself but I am sure you wont
v.



Miriam

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[2jo2]

I think when you have a cold, you can't really smell and because you can't smell, you can't taste and because you can't taste, your appetite gets to be zero. I don't think you'll v* from the cold.


I know what you mean about your boyfriend. There are times when I am down and think of how easy it would be if I only had to worry about myself and not anyone else getting sick in front of me... how easy it would be to become homebound and a hermit. But that's just it, it's too easy. In order to remain healthy we need contact from other people. I find it funny, because being around other people will make you exposed to germs more, but I've read where people that are social and have alot of outside contact are healthier and have less colds per year than those who are by themselves. Glad you made up with your boyfriend.


I hope you are feeling better soon, hugs to you!

[faith-marilyn]

hey sweetie - dont 4get all the hard work u have done, uve been doin so great, dont let one day ruin that 4 u, its natural 4 anyone to feel down when they have a cold! you have your cbt soon which is gunna be so good for you, dont let this beat u because you've already proved to yourself over the last few days that u are stronger than this stupid emet, im proud of u for what u have achieved!
*hug* love ya hunny, keep smilin xxxx

[sarahx]

I guess im disappointed that my emet is still as bad as ever, i just hid it for a while i think? Anyway im gonna keep going an at the moment im just sitting here hoping i dont get sick tonight! Wish me luck!


Sarah xxx

[Galadriel]

hey there,


I know what you mean about having a good period, and at some point it goes downhill again. I know its tough. I get like that too, have a REAL good couple days, then bam its like I got hit by a pile driver or something. I guess moodswings are a normal part of life. Its when they get too much or too frequent and stuff that its not good. I know this emet is rough, it seems to add an extra element to things. Like Ive been doing well at night, then last nite Im up with a stomach ache. I hate it when that happens. Just hang in there, things will look up again.

[eyecandi512]

I'm going throught the same thing with my boyfriend. Ive slipped pretty far into my phobias and depression lately and i;ve been so moody. I've been picking fights and im surely making him feel bad. I feel horrible and I'm constantly apologizing and trying to make it up to him. I apologize all the time for my stupid fears, depression and hang up and he tells me he loves me for who I am-everything included. He is such a great guy and always just wants me to be happy and feel good. But lately I'm just always feeling sick, and it's afecting the both of us. I'm afraid he'll get sick of dealing with my problems too, I love him so much and he's my only friend. Without him I'd be isolated from the world. He's the only person I talk to. I know deep down that he really loves me though and tell myself this as a means to try and make myself get better and get more control over my situation. I'm trying so hard.


That would be my one wish too....actually it would be to eradicate vomit from the world...nobody would ever vomit. We can still get colds and the flu-but no vomit. Oh, i wish it could be....I'd finally be happy and sane. [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]

[sarahx]

aww eyecandi thats a better wish - for us anyways lol!


I understand completely how things are with ur boyfriend, its the same for me too. I always apologise for bein the way i am and im convinced that no normal guy would want to stay with me being like tis, yet my boyf still loves me and like u, hes my only friend, apart from my mum!!! Im feeling a little better so far today but it is only 8.30am lol! Im goin out soon, so fingers crossed i feel ok. Thankyou all for your replies, it means such a lot to me.


Sarah xxx

[faith-marilyn]

im glad u feel better hun yey ! [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img] have a nice day xxx

[Jenneh]

Sarah -- ((hugs)) sorry i cant do nemore... really feeling the strain.


xxx

[sarahx]

Jen, its enough jst knowin ppl are here u kno..?


Thanks guys, and todays been ok, even went out for dinner, although i didnt eat very much cos i was a bit scared. Oh well...


Sarah xxx

[faith-marilyn]

WELL DONE!!!!!!
this time last week u wer so scared of that! your doin so well :-D xxxxxx

[sarahx]

Well im trying hard but i just cant get out of the habit of asking my bf all the time wether he feels sick or not! I ask him all the time, like every 2mins when hes eating. And at leastevery hour anyways lol. Hes good about it but it would p*ss me off so i know its hard for him too. Grrr im so annoyed with emt!


Sarah xxx

[jazz]

aw sarah, he's obviously nuts about you so i wouldn't worry about annoying him!
i hate having a spell of really good days, only for it to suddenly end in nausea and panic etc. what you have to remember is; you had a good spell, and you'll have another one!
You won't feel yourself anyway with a cold, because you're all bunged up, and your appetite won't be the same, it's normal, and you're bound to feel groggy until it's run it's course.
I shouldn't panic about having a cold if I were you, it will be a pain in the ass whilst you have it, but you're appetite will pick up afterwards.
As for your boyfriend, he will have no reason to feel sick! Tell yourself that next time you feel sick " I have no reason to feel sick, therefore i will NOT vomit "

[eyecandi512]

Today my bf (john) and I had yet another fight....this time because I was in a GOOD mood. He was tryign to kiss me and be romantic with me, and I kept laughing about something funny. He got mad bc the night before I asked him uf he was still sexually attracted to me and told him I think he hates to touch me. HE tried to make it up to me tonight, but I was too giddy. He said I make him feel inadequete sometimes and that it's not how things used to be when we first started dating. I cried, and asked him if he was going to leave me. He told me of course not, but we've been through so much recently and it's hard when he tries to be so strong for the both of us. I felt so horrible and nonsupportive. I really saw how my phobias and issues affect the people I love most. But he said he loves me so much and would never dream of leaving me, that we need to get through this together and he would do whatever it takes to help. He is the best.