I really need to rant right now because I am just about at breaking point. I have had enough of constantly feeling like crap, 24/7. I've convinced myself I have all these horrible health issues and it's making my life a living hell. Emet wasn't even an issue for me last year. It's only because I lost my job in January has emet become such a HUGE part of my life and who I am. I suffer from panic and anxiety attacks. I've lost friends, I hardly see anyone now. I'm terrified to go out in public. I've basically put my life on hold just so I can live like this. No one understands. My family just think I'm lazy. My friends get annoyed that I no longer want to hang out. I've GAINED about 10lbs from comfort eating. I wish I had lost weight instead. I'm turning 21 in five weeks and this is how horrible my life is. I'm supposed to be going to Paris for my birthday but I am terrified of getting s*. I'm scared of the plane flight, I'm scared to eat and drink over there. I'm scared to go out in public. I feel terrible. I really think I need some help.