In a mess :(

[rachel_81]

Hey, i'm feeling really down and hope some of you might
be able to understand what i mean. Since i finished uni i've had
no job until last tuesday when i had to get a job (money wise). I
have had a terrible day today and really don't think i can cope with
it. I'm now cross with myself for not being able to cope.
And i don't want to be a burden on my husband cos of my problems and
the fact i really want to quit but can't. Got myself into a right state
about it and had 3 panic attacks this evening. Not helping is the
fact that my husband is working a night shift and i have seen him for
about 1 hour in the last 24! Sorry to ramble but its made me feel
a bit better just writing it down.</font>

[alliecat]

Aww honey... I know exactly how you feel. Balancing your life, on top of having emet, is really really difficult. I'm in the same EXACT situation as you are right now. I completely feel for you. Its hard to cope, and I often don't cope. It'll be okay though, in the end. Update us on how you feel, and if you need to talk, my AIM name is GreenEydGlare, and my email is [email protected].

[spilled_milk]

Oh wow I don't really know what to say as I've never really been in that situation except for trying to balance grades on top of emet, but I feel horrible for you! I hope everything works out. And if it makes you feel better to write it, keep us updated! keep writing! I really hope you're ok...


&lt;3 Anya--

[HDogg]

I also know how you feel. I was unemployed for awhile and was happy being at home and not having to worry if I was going to panic or feel sick at work. But eventually, I went on meds, started feeling better, so I had to get a job. Plus, we are tight financially. My first week, I was scared to death. I hate being new, and not knowing anything about the job or knowing anybody. But after the second week, I started getting used to the routine and after the first paycheck, I felt good knowing that my husband wasn't going to have to be the sole provider anymore. His burden was relieved and our marriage has been happier the past couple of weeks. But he works for a cable company and every few weeks, he's on call and has to go out in the middle of the night and leave me alone for hours while he fixes a problem. I hate being alone at night the worst, because I'm scared I'll get sick and nobody will be around to comfort me. I hope you are feeling better now!


God bless!

[Jenneh]

what are u working as?


im sure it will get easier -- try not to be angry at yourself. its not ur fault that u've got this shadow behind you, ur doing the best that u can, im sure.


however much we want, we cannot be perfect, we're not able to just go get a job, do this, do that, and not expect emet to kick in a little bit!! but u gotta keep at it, kick it down so that next time it won't even bother tryin to make u panic, because you won't let it.


Jen xxxx