this is what i hate the most

[jazz]

recently, i have thought to myself, that fearing vomit isn't so hard to understand... for me personally, the thing that i am SO frightened of.. is the lead up feeling..
the crippling nausea, and most of all that hideous taste and sensation as your stomach sends its contents back up..sorry guys.
i mean, i hate the uncertainty of it, the lack of control etc etc..sure, but i fear the taste/smell/sensation more than ANYTHING else in the world, i don't know about you.
someone once said that vomiting isn't as bad as nausea.. and i couldprobably agree with this statement, because i experience nausea everyday. Not only that, but the last time i was sick,i felt so much better once i had actually been sick.
Saying tht though, the nausea wasn't so bad that time i just worry that when i feel really really bad, and iAMsick..what will i do if i dont feel any better?!
i could cope with it last time because i felt so much better after getting rid of that nasty stuff...but having to deal with nausea after each bout, i dont know if i could manage that.
can anyone share?
x

[wing]

I'm really not sure..but i think what i'm afraid of is the fact i have to face people after. I'm a social phobic and i hate attention. I think i associated getting sick would attract attention. It feels like i cannot live to face a person after if i get sick. 1). for me it creates a burden to them to take care of me (I have very little self esteem), 2). it makes me feel shameful. Even if no one knew i'd still live with that fact.Once when i was eight and had gotten sick my mom wasnt mad at me or anything but i remember i kept mumbling "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.." For me i think that gettingsick is worse but i dunno...

[jazz]

oh my god! last time iwas sick i couldnt stop saying sorry either!
i was hung over the bathroom completely ashamed of myself and saying sorry whilst my mum tried to sort me out.
i used to be scared to face people after, but my fears are now concentrated on the actual sensation of it

[r311dude]

For me it's not the vomit itself, it's the hold build up to it. I wouldn't mind vomiting in front of people, as long as I get it in a trash can or something LOL. But yea, it's just the whole build up, the fear of not knowing when you'll be sick and that kind of stuff that freaks me out ahhhhhh

[wing]

Ooooh. Well yea i getashamed alot for the littlest things. Sometimes i get all shy even with my close family and friends for no good reason and then i'm like silent.


In front of people...THAT is my WORST nightmare. *knock on wood*Edited by: wing

[eyecandi512]

I completely agrre with the fear of the ucontrollable part of vomiting. I am very afraid of that. I also have the shame and embarrasment. I agree nausea is probably worse than the actually vomiting....but I'm not quite sure I remember, it's also worse b/c it is so prolonged and makes u even more anxious as it goes on. The sensation is bad too. There's is nothing I like about it.

[charzysbebe]

I can relate. Does anyone replay the vomiting episodes back in their minds like for a long time after it happens?? Like the moment that led to it, up until you felt better? I know I can remember EVERY episode I have ever had. How miserable I was, and even how many times I did it. I definatly hate the nausea more than the vomiting. Although I hate everything about vomiting too....smell, sound, taste, site, etc. In fact, I won't even vomit in a toilet because of the sound. I get a bucket or a towel. ICK!!!! I wish there was some sort of life-long immunization out there for gastroenteritis!! As for being embaressed, I stay in my room when I am sick with that and tell all to leave me alone....for I don't want anyone to see me doing that....ICK!!! [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]Charlotte

[Sun666]

I don´t know the feeling, how is it to get being sick! But I am so afraid, because I hate this bad nausea and I think that the vomit-act still will be more terrible than the nausea maybe. And I think I can´t stand this!


It is really strange, I remember all the the three times I vomited in my life, (I was a little child), I didn´t get panic, I didn´t cry......But I don´t know the feeling, how is the act!!!! And I can´t understand why I am so scared in those situation, and other people, like my sister etc. are so really calm then. WHY?

[sarahx]

Wing, thats my greatest fear too, vomiting inront of someone else. Eeeek!


But i am just scared of it all, if i was to vomit id rather it happened more or less suddenly, with time for me to get to another room or something!


Sarah xxx

[SullyMel]

Hey Jazz:


I agree with you. The nausea is so much worse than the actual deed or the nausea feelings leading up to the deed. When the deed comes, all a person has to do is shut their eyes. Nausea is just horrible. Maybe that's why I can't stand it and have to get it over with or I just let it come. I HATE the feelings beforehand. That's what I hate the most too. I would rather v* than deal with horrible nausea. I don't know what I would do if the horrible nausea came back right away either. I hope this is what you were talking about. Just giving my input. Take Care. Mel [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]

[mbs730]

Vomiting in front of someone else is the worst thing you can do, maybe I tend to put myself in someone else's shoes since I am so phobic of others being sick around me, but it is quite mortifying.... I hate everything about it. I dunno...


Miriam

[Jenneh]

for me its the feeling out of control and humiliation that comes with v*ing in public.


Jen xxx

[jazz]

have you ever considered that.. if there was no such thing as nausea, we wouldn't be phobic of vomit?!
i think that would be so much easier to deal with rather than the lead up feeling to the vomit.. etc
don't worry mel, i know what you mean! it's the build up which makes everything terrifying.
i can also remember dealing with vomiting quite rationally as a child, its as iv gotten older, that i have suddenly become phobic, and therefore can't deal with it reasonably.
i think though, on the subject of "where" we vomit.. if you feel really baad, like genuinely bad.. you wouldn't care where you did it, unless that was your main concern..ie) social phobic etc...
charlotte..i always get visual memories of vomiting! especailly when i feel queasy, which then leads me to feel worse.
guh! it IS mortifying, nothing worse ;(

[rcurran]

For me, it's mostly the vomiting that I am afraid of.Yes I hate the nausea beforehand, but i really hate the vomiting part. I will not do it in a toilet because I hate the sound, so I usually do it in the sink, or trash can. I mostly fear other people around me vomiting. I can't stand to see someone, or even hear someone vomit, it makes me shake and i get so scared, i put my fingers in my ears to block the sound and go as far away as possible from that person. Whenver I 'm out somewhere, mostly at a party or bar, I alway look at people to see if they look ok, if not, i stay far away from them or i leave. I hate it. I'm fine untill someone says that they feel sick, then I start to get nervous, very nervous. I hate this.