I've been this way as long as I can remember. Every year it's been getting worse and worse, but at the same time I'm starting to better understand what exactly I'm dealing with.

I've begun to realize that there are far worse things in life than the one thing that I'm afraid of, yet I STILL continue to let it control every second of my life. I clearly know that I've been very fortunate and have been given many opportunities in life that many others have never had, yet I'm still unable to fully enjoy them.

Is anyone else like this? I wish I could just live my life and enjoy every second, but I can't.

I wish the best of luck to all of you out there trying to make it through this. Together we can make it through.