(Pardon if this goes on forever, I'm not exactly good about posting in forums ^^')

So I figured as my first post here, I would share that for the last week I have been absolutely tweaked out of my mind. a quick back story on my emetophobia, I've always had it but when I was in 9th grade I had to have a surgery on my head (it was minor in and out the same day) I'd always been a nervous child, always the anxious one sitting in the back twitching and staring at the floor, anyway. After I had that surgery I had to be sent home from school for an entire week because my stomach was hurting so bad that I didn't want to leave home.

That week my parents took me to the doctor, it turned out I had Acid Reflux. They stuck me on pills told me it'd fix everything and sent me home. Eh well it worked for a few months but I had constant fights with belly upsets and when you mix weird pains that I'm not use to having with my anxious, hypochondriac type personality.. you're asking for a mental break down. So this all started basically 4 years ago. I've never been on anti-anxiety medication unless prozac counts but that I think just ended up making me worse.

Over the last year or so though my emetophobia has had an extreme spike, I was so terrified of it that I basically dropped out of public school *5 minutes away from my house* and started home schooling (pathetic I know >_&gt after I had a bad experience at the dentist where I almost v* I havent been to another one since then. THIS is where my current situation starts...

In a shorter way of explaining it, I was born with bad genetics as far as teeth go, all of mine when I was a kid had to be put in those metal casing (argh I hated those), now I have a really bad cavity.. well actually a couple but one is worse than all of em and its the one I'm tweaked about the most (like seriously hoping I dont lose it tweaked).. So I while I still go outside for fresh air.. I haven't left my neighborhood in.. well its coming up on 7 months now, to go to the place where I had my last severe n* experience, so yeah just thinking about it makes me wanna scream.

So yeah.. sorry I'm a little talkative about all this << , could anyone offer some advice to me that'll keep me a little less freaked, I was thinking I've heard a lot about Dramamine (I honestly hadnt heard of it before) so maybe giving that a shot? or I have a Phenergan tablet from my last major melt down that I actually went to the ER for, not sure which would be better.

Anyway thanks for actually reading all this >> sorry again for it being so flippin long