I think I have to leave

[x hannah x]

Ok this is killing me because I love all you guys sooooo much!!! But every time I come hear and I hear another story about someone v*ing or seeing someone v* and about viruses going round it just makes me realise how much of it there is. I need to get away from here for a while. But I'll still be on msn and I will visit sometimes, I jsut don't think this place is helping me. I was only scared of others v*ing but since I've read all these things I've developed a fear of myself too. I'm thinking this is a bad idea but I just have to take a break.

[SullyMel]

Hi Hannah:


I'm sorry you feel that way. I felt that way at one point, but then it just went away. If you feel you need to take a break, then do it. You know we're always here for you. Take Care [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]

[kmarie]

Hey there girl..i can certainly understand and have done pretty much the same thing..i ponly visit every so often..not nearly as much as i sued to and i find things are better for me..so perhaps it is a good move for you!


We will of course miss you greatly..make sure you come abck and visit us..and you know we are here should you need us!

[sarahx]

Im sorry [img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img]i didnt really want to post about me bein ill bu ti was scared. I understand u tho, i feel like that right now. Ihate it that we find out that this stuff exists!!! I hope you come back and see us tho!


Sarah xxx

[eyecandi512]

Sorry you feel that way Hannah....maybe you need some time to yourself and re-evaluate. Do something good for yourself, get out of the house and try not to think about emet so much. Sometimes you just need to take your mind off the subject and stop obsessing about it. I completely understand and I hope you feel better!


Danielle

[sunshine16]

Aww Im sorry to hear your leaving, Hannah, but im sure its for the best. and i know that its best for you to do what you need to do.


Hopefully will talk to you on msn occasionaly, and other than that, take care.


All my blessings,


Laura

[sage]

Hey Hannah!


Although we form attachments to one another as "friends", it's still ok if people leave and move on. I've discovered that there are so many ZILLION people who come here, feel incredibly "validated" that they're not the only one with this...then get information to help them, andleave and go get treated....that really, that's probably the best thing sometimes. And I totally get how coming here can make you worse.In fact, anyone who isn't gettingBETTER by continually coming hereprobably shouldn't. We should exist to help peopleget better or atleast FEEL better. If you're getting support, good information, etc., then it's worth staying. But if coming here is upsetting you then it's not good at all.


When I was going through treatment I came here cuz a bunch of us were working through the exposure therapy pictures on Margaret's site. I felt supported at that time. Then I went through an immature, anxious stage and tried to "fix" everyone else. They got mad at me (rightlyso!) and I left for a while. When I came back I wanted to try to help others without being so anxious about it and judging them. I want to inspire other people whenever I can, so I stick around. But believe me, if I didn't feel good aboutall this I wouldn't be here.


Bless you in your journey Hannah! Thanks for the cool avitars!Remember to do everything you can to heal from this. No matter what. No matter how old you get, or how much life deals you a shi**yhand...you just hang in there and dont' give up until you're all better. When I was your age, I thought it was hopeless. It took me 20 years to get better but I never gave up. Don't you give up either, ok? There's great treatment available now - it shouldn't take 20 years. In 1 year you should be able to be fully functioning without any fear at all, givena good therapist and a determination to get better.


Lots of love little one!


SAGE

[x hannah x]

Thanks for replying guys, it's nice to feel so liked when I seem to have such a bad effect on everyone else around me, I want to leave when none of you hate me yet. Leaving this place is easy to do (physically, not so much emotionally) but I wish I could leave the rest of the world too. I could,I betI don't though. I'mtoo wimpy. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]

[kmarie]

we could never hate you..you are such a kind, cinsiderate, caring, special eprson its not even funny!


you will not leave thsi world until you are meant to..and all i can say is if you are feeling as if you need or want to leave this world then please seek help....you are not to wussy to do it..you are to smart to do that...i know you are.


you have so many people that love and care for you..leaving ths world might ease your pain but it would cause great pain and grief for all thos who care fo you.


take some time for you girl...rest..relax..eat right...do things you enjoy doing..if you cant come around here then so be it...but please...get yourself soem help..anyway you can...you are far to important to all of us here to loose for good ok?


if you ever need to talk please email me ok? my email is [email protected] and I check it constantly...i am ehre whenever you need..i also have AOL and Yahoo...justs ay the word and we can chat.

[Melikasa]

I hope you are not leaving because you think that people here are upset with you or something. I have totally enjoyed reading all your posts and loved to see what avatars you came up with.
I do agree that if you are no longer comfortable with the posts and getting ideas that are making things worse, you should go and get strong in other ways. I come now because it is kind of an addiction now to come and see what people are doing and how they are progressing. I think that once I found out i wasn't alone and got to see and work with the exposure site that I have gotten stronger, but if that hadn't worked I wouldn't have left as well.
I hope to stay in touch with you if you decide to leave. I would love to hear that you are getting better or that you were better.
go kick some emet ass. It WILL happen. God Bless hun

[Jenneh]

heya hannah!!


ur doing a very responsible thing, luckily for me, im getting cured, and not affected by this site, but i can understand how one might be.


so u go look after urself, take care,


Jen xxxxxxxx

[sparky2004]

Hannah,


Your sensitivity levels are very high, and believe me, I can understand. Do what you feel is best.


Don't let your fear own you. Own your fear, and try to understand it. It also sounds like that there is an underlying problem of deep depression, and I have gone through that too. I think we all have. I would like to see you come back here when you feel up to it. I would also recommend telling your family and friends. When I first told my friends, they were more curious about it than repulsed. They consatntly asked me questions about it because it seemed to fascinate them. This fear is unique, but the anxiety symptoms are not. Just remember sweety,...you are a normal person, having normal reactions to an abnormal situation.


Take care honey. This too shall pass.