I have to whinge to some people who will understand.

I had a tooth pulled out last September. I left the tooth get infected for 2 years because I heard about the side effects of the anesthetic. And the day after I had the tooth pulled, for the first time in 10 years, I was ill (it was only bile) at work. Ever since that day I've developed a severe digestive disorder, I've been sick once more after that first instance and I live in fear every moment of my life. I feel nauseas every day, I'm afraid to eat until I'm full but I'm afraid to leave my stomach empty, I'm taking so many drugs and remedies but can't do any of the things that the doctor is asking me to do to figure out what my digestive disorder is because of the drug side effects. Everything that ever happens in my life now I think about how it may affect my stomach, when I go to sleep at night I dream about being sick, when I wake up I feel nauseas and this prevents me from going to work and my boss doesn't understand. I have no friends anymore because I don't want to catch anything off anyone, I'm scared to eat chicken, I wash my hands too much and I just moved in with my alcoholic boyfriend who is sick atleast every month and he's loud when he does it and it makes me feel sick and I can't have him near me.

I hate my life and I want to die.