Unknown illnesses when I was younger
I was just reflecting on a couple of unknown illnesses that I had before I was emet. They were sudden and very short lived. To this day I'm not sure what caused either of them.
The first one, I recall waking up at night feeling extremely cold. I had a high fever and knew it. The next morning I was still feeling sick and ended up v*. Then I got out of bed and that was the end of it. I felt fine for the rest of the day and it didn't come back. No fever or anything.
The second one was similar except there was no fever. I was sitting at the computer playing a game (starcraft), and suddenly I noticed I felt really nauseous. At first I tried to tough it out, but after a while I couldn't take it and went to lie down on the couch. The time between the couch and the bout of sickness is a blur, but all I remember is calling my dad to bring me a bin and I v*. And just like last time, I was fine and went on with my day.
I can't think of anything that would cause either of these illnesses. They seemed so random and uncharacteristic for a virus or fp. I wasn't on drugs or anything either. Is it possible that these unsolved incidences contributed to my emetophobia later on? As in, a part of me fears a similar random onset of illness that's seemingly impossible to predict or prevent (since I don't know what caused it)?
If anyone else has any similar stories, please feel free to share. Maybe we'll find something in common.
'I am a sick man...I am a spiteful man. I am an unattractive man. I think my liver is diseased. Then again, I don't know a thing about my illness; I'm not even sure what hurts.'