One of the most scarring nights of my life.

[impulseee]

This is my first post here and I just wanted to say I'm glad I finally found somewhere that I can talk to people and have them all understand what I'm going through.

Life has been a mess lately and it seems my emet. is amplifying as I get older. I'm only 19 now and I sure hope it doesn't continue on like this.

Anyways, I decided to post in the relationships section because one of the most mentally scarring nights in my life ended up leading me to fall in love with the most amazing guy I've ever met.

You see, me and my boyfriend are both pretty experimental with drugs and such. But back when this incident happened, I never really related drugs with v*ing cause I'd just never seen it happen before.

Well, back when we first started dating, I told him about my fear, and I assumed he understood. But one night he had received a gift from his friend, a bag of pills. I didn't know how many he had popped, and apparently he was too out of it to remember. Throughout the night we had met up with 3 other people so we had a full car and we're having quite a blast. I was sitting in the passenger seat and he was driving. We had just gotten out of a residential area and onto a main street when I looked over at him and he didn't look right. I asked him if he was okay, and he replied "Yes baby, I'm fine." Ten seconds later he was opening his door, swerving into the other lane, and v*ing out the side of the car. This set me off into the worst panic attack I've ever had in my life. I had no idea why he was getting sick. I ended up balling up in the seat, plugging my ears ( which is an instant reaction I have every single time I see/hear/think someones going to v*), and screaming at the top of my lungs. Eventually the people in the back of the seat go him to stop the car and I immediately jumped out, ran a few feet down the road and collapsed. A few minutes later my boyfriend walked up to me and tried to get me off the ground. I wouldnt let him touch me. I didnt even want to look at him. The rest of our friends eventually got out of the car and all convinced me that he hadn't actually v*ed. He just thought he was going to. So we all got back into the car, but he got into the back seat because I wasn't about to let him drive like that. Well, as you can probably guess, once the car got started moving, I look over at him and he's making that same face again. Of course, I start screaming, and they rip the car over to the side of the curb and get him out as fast as possible. At this point we realize he's OD'ing. After v*ing about 5 or 6 times, one of the other guys gets sick and I'm freaking out, running down the street bawling like a maniac and end up passing out on someones front lawn. Eventually they got me in someone else's car, and we drive behind him and his friends back to his house. They had to carry him up to his room and let him sleep.
I cried so much that night. Not only out of fear but because I cared about him so much. I didn't want to see him die this young because of some stupid drug.

That night was when he realized that I was completely serious when I said I was scared. Since then he promised he would never touch those drugs again, and never put me through something that terrible.

Now, he's the greatest boyfriend I could ever ask for. He completely respects my fears, gets me water every time I start panicking, covers my ears or eyes when someone's about to get sick or even on TV, and tells people to shut it if they ever mention v*ing around me.

Anyways, that was my story. Hope you we're at least a little bit interested.

[what_the_frick]

Oh my gosh. That must have been so terrifying for you. I'm glad he was ok and realized how serious your phobia is. How long have you been together?

[asianeko]

That sounds so scary!! I'm glad he's better now!!

My experience wasn't quite as bad, but after Kris saw firsthand how terrified I was after he had a night of too much drinking, he started going out of his way to protect me from it too. You're a lucky lady!!

[graceandhope]

Just me reading that and having a first reaction of I'm glad you all managed to not cause an accident or kill someone then??

I hope for the sake of everyone else that you've grown up and don't attempt to drive when you're not in any fit state to. People like you make me sick.

[Flipperbaby]

Just me reading that and having a first reaction of I'm glad you all managed to not cause an accident or kill someone then??

I hope for the sake of everyone else that you've grown up and don't attempt to drive when you're not in any fit state to. People like you make me sick.

Wait, i thought this site was for talking about emetophobia, not for judging others! If you had ever taken recreational pills you might realise that driving on e or similar pills is actually not the same as driving on alcohol. Probably safer than driving after two wines.

ANYWAY
i have a very similar story...
My boyfriend and i were staying at a friends place the after a night of heavy drinking. He was VERY drunk and just as we were about to go to sleep i asked him numerous times if he felt like he was going to be sick. He replied with a defiant no many times. Then minutes later he rolled over and started v*ing down the side of the bed. I freaked out and ran into the next room to tell his mates. They went in and cleaned everything up and helped him out. An hour later and they were desperately trying to get me to go to sleep. I couldn't look at my bf and was very reluctant to re-enter the room. I just stood motionless for ages staring at the spot where he had been sick. Being drunk he took my reaction the wrong way and assumed i was glaring hatefully at him. It all turned into a big mess and we ended up fighting about it. All of his mates ended up getting angry at me for treating him like shit and thought i was just being difficult. It can be so hard sometimes to communicate the depth of the fear to other people. Eventually my bf and i made up and i think he explained the situation to his mates so they got over it too. It can be really hard being a young person with this fear. Being young is all about risk taking and new experiences (so what if this means taking drugs - freedom of choice!) but it can be extremely hard to go to parties when you have to scope the room for potential v*ers and check every little puddle for chunks (from a distance and hiding behind someone)

[graceandhope]

The site may be about emetophobia, but does that mean that everything else is ignored? I support anyone with this fear, but I can't and won't ignore something as stupid as this being posted. Drug driving isn't that different to driving when drunk - the police don't think so, and statements about swerving across lanes backs that up.

You have no idea who on here has been affected by drunks/ drugged people driving. People who do that don't just injure/ kill themselves you know.

[Flipperbaby]

Driving performance in the sense of lateral and longitudinal vehicle control was not greatly affected after MDMA, but deteriorated after multiple drug use. The most striking result was the apparent decreased sense for risk taking, both after MDMA and after multiple drug use.

Interesting quote from a medical study. But i guess the police and authorities must ALWAYS know whats best aye.

[graceandhope]

he was opening his door, swerving into the other lane,

Of course, before swerving into the other lane he'd checked that there was noone there so it was totally safe, plus the guy is totally capable of vomiting whilst driving, without affecting his driving in any way, therefore not putting any other road users at risk. Silly me for not realising.

Cars are dangerous enough without using them when your judgement is impaired in any way. But it's ok, you continue with your recreational drug use Flipperbaby and drive whilst under the influence, cos you've got a sentence in a study that says it might not affect you. Just make sure the only person you kill or injure is yourself.