OCD – Just wondering if anyone else feel’s OCD about washing their hands, hand sanitizer, or Lysol?
I used to refer to myself as a germophobe, but I recently realized that, yes, I am afraid of germs but more so about getting a SV*. I don’t worry about getting a cold type flu or any such thing. It doesn’t give me abnormal anxiety, just that I would rather not miss class because I can’t afford to.
Stomach pain – Just wondering if anyone else has chronic stomach pain?
I grew up always having a stomach ache. I remember crying to need my mom in pre-K, but I had a stomachache that accompanied that. I am starting to believe now that the anxiety triggered stomach pain even then. I even had a theory as a child in elementary school. I remember standing in the lunch line saying that if I cough and don’t V* then I won’t. haha SILLY to think about, but whatever gave me less anxiety works for me.
I remember starting Pepsid AC when I was maybe 6 or 7. Since then I still take stomach meds. I have been on aciphex, prevacid, nuluv, and now protonix. I usually would take them for awhile, months, then I would quit. I am horrible with meds. I hate taking any kind of meds if I don’t need to. ALSO I have a horrible gag reflex which sorta ties into my emet. I can’t swallow pills, and only just recently started to swallow smaller ones. (I’m 22 and I know this is pathetic).
My doctor told me that I have acid reflux, which is why I take the meds. She also told me that I have IBS, and gastritis. I also still continue to eat dairy when I have a degree of lactose intolerance.. So I am basically hurting myself there.. I also have stomach pain from anxiety, which is where it gets me most of the time.
The hardest part about so much stomach pain is I don’t know which problem it is that is causing me to hurt at that point in time. It could be anyone of those reasons or a combination. My fear is Oh no, is this a Sv*? Or am I going to v*? Runs through my mind everytime if it is bad enough. Or at times, it could all just be in my head.