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[FunLuvinGurl27]

Hi, my name is Stephanie, and I'm 18 years old. I know I have emetophobia and I know how it started. Almost 2 years ago when I still suffered from binge eating disorder, I took it too far one night. I ate way too much and then drank a soda after that, when I did that nausea hit me like a rock and I thought "Okay I'm gonna throw up let's get it over with," but to my displeasure, nothing came up, I started to panic because the nausea was so intense and soon I was begging for help. I ended up having a panic attack that night and stayed nauseous for 4 hours before I fell asleep from mental exhaustion.

Ever since that experience I have been terrified of nausea and throwing up. It's been like a roller coaster ride these past two years, I've gotten over it for a few months, but then the fear comes back. It's back again and I'm determined to get this fear under control.

What happens to me is that I get anxious after I eat and my throat will tense up, it will stay tense for possibly hours at a time, and all the while my anxiety builds which sometimes leads to a panic attack, or I'll just try to avoid the panic attack and go to bed even if its early.
It's like I can't stop thinking about it. It also hits me worst at night because that's when the horrible experience that started it happened.

I'm tired of being afraid, and I'm ready to move on. I hope that I can find support and help here, because I will be staying until I get over this fear once and for all.

[olschesky]

welcome, i've found this my safe place to vent my frustrations and fears......hopefully it will help you too

[FunLuvinGurl27]

Thanks. I'm just always making myself feel sick/anxious and making my throat tense up for hours on end. Even when I should be completely comfortable my anxiety ruins it. I'm calming down right now from some anxiety I was feeling earlier today. I just want this hell to be over, I'm tired of being on edge and scared all the time.