OT: My Dog Died

[Jill in Apartment 413]

Okay well he wasn't really MY DOG but he was my parents' dog and I loved him just the same. He was my buddy, I would go over there and play with him and tease him and hug him, he was just my little baby boo.

There are questioning circumstances around his death that I just can't get out of my mind. Before I went on my trip to New Jersey I was at my rents' to pick up some things and my dad said they were trying to find Smokey (The dog) a new home because they were going to sell their current house. I was like, "Why do you need to get rid of Smokey to sell the house?" and he was like, "I'll have a realtor coming over all day we can't just have him around." So I was like, "Whatever." thinking that was a bullshit cop out.

The thing is NO ONE in that house liked Smokey. I'm so serious, last year my parents were talking about how he would never make it til next Christmas, and they were secretly hoping there would be a reason to put him down. My mom even said on a few occasions "Can you put a dog down just cause you don't like him?" I really think she was only half joking.

So today (and I was actually in a good mood) my dad calls me and he's just talking about normal stuff right? Then he starts talking about putting the house on the market and I was like, "Oh" and after that he said, "Smokey has passed on." and I got really upset. He said Smokey was "sick" and he wasn't going to keep him in pain for his sake. I don't believe that for one mother loving second. I told him he was lying, that Smokey wasn't sick, but my dad said "Why would I lie" and I didn't want to drive an even bigger stake between us so I just let it go. He said some stuff after that and I don't know what because I was so struck that Smokey had died I just didn't care.

I went in to tell my fiance what had happened and just broke down crying. I feel like Smokey died and no one loved him. I feel like he must have been so scared at the vet and my Dad or whoever took him didn't give two shits about him. I don't even know if someone stayed with Smokey for his passing. If I would have known I would have been there. This is total bullshit, I didn't even get to say goodbye. I am still very upset and want to know the real story but if I press for it now I'm just going to piss people off. Maybe I would feel better if I knew someone loved him at that house, but they didn't. My sisters hated him, my mom hated him, and my dad hated him. Serves my dad right that he's sick (or was, getting over it now). Poor poor Smokey. You will be missed.

[olschesky]

so sorry for your loss....my cat died 3 weeks ago.....he had been through many emet panic attacks with me.....
i used to work at a vet's office.....someone always holds the pet when it gets put down....used to be my job when the family couldn't do it.....it's very peaceful ....the truly just fall asleep. i hope this helps.....

the circumstances suck.......sorry

[kellybeth]

I would be pissed!!! How old was he? Is it possible that he got sick? If my Mom would have done this I would put her to sleep!

[stella9]

Awww Sweetie. I am so sorry. It IS losing a family member. We lost our cat on October 9th. He was almost 22 years old in people years!!!! Never had a sick day in his life until the day he died. My 18 year old dog died a few years ago.

My kids want another cat or dog. I can't take the loss. It is too much.

Sending puppy prayers for your baby and to you.

Stella

[Kell1429]

I'm so sorry Why did your parents even get him in the first place if everyone hated him? Also, could you not have taken him? Just wondering...anyways I hope you feel better soon

[jkl81]

That's terrible! I wish people wouldn't get dogs who don't love them as family members, they can be a lot of trouble but IMO worth it. I hate reading stories like this my border x Aussie is almost 13. It hurts.

[Jill in Apartment 413]

Kelly1429-- They got him about 6 years ago because he was going to be put down if they didn't. Then they decided that they didn't like him. I offered to take him numerous time but it was an empty gesture as I could not legally take him in this apartment that I am living in. I would have gladly taken Smokey, I told my parents that I would have taken him if I could. I really would have. Yes he was annoying and a handful but I loved him just the same. *Sigh* I'm so sad, I keep thinking about him.

There was this episode of Family Guy on tonight that I was watching and Brian (The dog on the show) was rolling around in garbage and I instantly thought about how Smokey loved to roll around in gross stuff and how cute I thought it was even though it was gross. LoL! I know I'm weird. I always say that I'm not getting another dog, but that's not true at all. I mean, as hard as it is to lose them it's harder not to have them in your life, you know?

[irish_grrl76]

I'm so sorry for your loss
I wanted to let you know that I'm sure Smokey went very peacefully. I worked at a veterinary hospital for many, many years and I've personally seen hundreds and hundreds of animals being euthanized. Even if your father didn't stay there with him, he certainly wasn't alone. I'm quite sure that the Dr's and staff treated Smokey with loving kindness.
Again, I'm sorry for your loss. It's so painful to lose a pet.

[Jill in Apartment 413]

Thank you all for your kind words. Me and my fiance have two cats, and they are really helping with the loss. I keep thinking how hard it's going to be to lose Wilson and Georgie. My fiance has never really lost an animal that she was close to or had around for a long time, so when it does happen to her I will be there for her. I told her that if I could I'd make her cats live forever just so she doesn't have to go through the pain of losing them.

[wendihk]

I am so sorry to hear about "your" dog. Believe me just because he lived at your parent's house doesn't negate the fact that he was yours. Once we connect with an animal we become "their person". Since no one at your parent's connected with him, you are it. He will be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge.

[Jill in Apartment 413]

I talked to my sister a few nights ago and she confirmed that Smokey was really sick and he needed to be put down. I believe her. She was like, "Remember what Sydney (Our other dog) was like when we had to put her down" and I was like, "Yeah..." she was like, "That's what SMokey was like, not as bad but really close to that." I understood. I'm still sad but if he needed to go, then he needed to go. At least he's not in pain.

[conefal21]

So sorry for your loss