This site is new, the feeling isn't.

[Fizzysid]

Hello there... I'm new here, and thought I'd introduce myself.
I'm 16 years old, and can't remember a time I haven't had to "live" with this phobia. People tell me I'm young, and that it's normal, or that I'll get over it... But I can't believe them. For the last two years my phobia has been getting worse and worse, to the point that it controls my entire life.

This feeling as as real as the hairs on my head.

Take now, for example. My brother came home drunk on Friday night and started causing havoc. I was so scared he'd be sick that I got out of bed at 5am and ran to my mum's boyfriend's house in nothing but a skirt and a pyjama top. I haven't slept, eaten or drank since then.

I'm scared of people being around when I'm sick. I had to send my boyfriend home before Valentines day, who I now won't see for two weeks. His parents hate me because I'm always nervous and ill and having to go home in the middle of the night... I can't go and visit him because I'm afraid the journey there will make me sick.

I can't go to college, I can't see friends.
I can't watch a film or a cartoon if it includes even the sound of someone being sick.

I can't live like this any more. I need help.

Anyway! Sorry for this long rant. Pleased to meet you all!

[moonshadow]

Hi and welcome... you've found a place where everyone understands exactly what you're feeling, and where you express your feelings without anyone thinking you're strange or judging you. Hope you feel at home here... it's a great first step to getting a grip of this vile phobia. It's so good to know we're not alone!

[vixki]

Hey. I'm 17 and also from England... glad you found this site! It can be SUCH a help to talk to people.
Be reassured that you COULD NOT have caught anything from your brother, he wasn't ill with a bug so there's nothing you can catch! You need to eat and drink though (Especially drink) because you'll feel so much worse if you don't . (infact dehydration can lead to being sick in the end)
But I know how you feel, and I'm really sorry for you. I hope you find its some help here!

Emma

[cactusinmyhead]

Hey welcome I'm new too, joined yesterday. For me the phobia comes in waves. Whenever I have an attack of n* (or any stomach pain that I convince myself is n*) it comes back and I panic. Whenever I hear of schoolmates getting a sv* or food p* or whatever else. I havent v* in 9 years and I dont plan on it anytime soon.

[Fizzysid]

Thank you all for the warm welcome!

I also have that trigger for my phobia. I get the tiniest stomach pain and suddenly I panic and start remembering all the times I've ever seen/heard/been sick... Which makes me panic more, which makes me feel worse, etc.

I'm sure I'll enjoy being a part of this community. Thank you again. =]

[olschesky]

welcome....you sound a lot like me.....one little twinge in my tummy or bowels and i am over the moon anxious......i have found things to distract me and usually goes away in time. i also take prozac and have valium when times are really tough.

hope you find the comfort and help i've found by coming to this site.....just keep ranting.....and reading ....
you are so not alone!

[hollysnan]

No you are certainly not alone! My phobia came on later in life (I am 56 now) and was fine as a child. Dont know why I have developed it really. I seem to be able to cope with being s* myself but if I think anyone else is going to be ill I panic, or if something on TV looks that way. I cant watch anything about people being drunk for fear they will v*. An episode of Grays Anatomy was on TV last night my husband was watching it and I was in the kitchen making tea, when I came back I felt panicky and said I hoped no-one was going to be s* and he said someone was so he switched it off! I really want to delete it from the planner but that wouldnt be fair to him. He is very understanding though. Its something we cant help but talking to others makes you realise youre not alone. Only an emet can understand another!