Just need to vent...

[oldgraymare]

im just getting so frustrated with all this...

im so sick of sitting around day after day with this low hum of sick and anxiety permeating everything i do...so sick of waiting for the other shoe to fall
i actually panicked today because my ear started to ring...like...not freak out totally but physically my body went all messed up and my thoughts raced to v*ing cause of course im emetophobic and GOD FORBID i v*...
like...WHO THE FRACK CARES IF I GET SICK! i mean honestly, people get sick, people die, it is a fact of life, it sucks, its painful but it doesnt last forever. why can i not just accept that? let this bull go! who cares if i v*! its my bodies way of helping me not hurting me...
i cant believe im actually afraid of withdrawaling off of IMODIUM for cripes sake...just because i read somewhere on the all knowing all wise google that its an opiate? like...UHG
afraid to sleep cause i might have a nightmare, what am i, four years old?

i want my head back, i want my life back this is just getting so freaking boring...

[olschesky]

i've had many days like that......not really feeling sick.....but afraid of going out because i "might" get sick......that whole thing sucks.

i started making myself do little even when i had that "dread" feeling.......go work out in the yard, go to the store for something quick, take a little walk.....pretty soon i would feel fine once getting outside.......i'm not saying it doesnt still happen at times, but you've got to break the cycle a little.......then hopefully alot.

i try and stay away from google myself........way too many things i dont need to know......

feel better

[ChibiGaku]

all I can say is: I'm just like you.
Good luck and may your phobia dissapear someday soon~