My phobia is taking over me.
My name is Jasmine. I am almost 21 years old. I have had emetophobia for as long as i can remember, but I don't know how it got started.
For me, I can not be around anybody getting sick even if it's family or friends. It hasn't even happened a lot. I just fear that it will. When it does, I run as fast as I can to get out of the area, and I plug my ears. I also get butterflies and I try not to cry. When I was younger, I got sick on an airplane. It wasn't even because of motion sickness. It was early in the morning and I had milk right before. But since then, I have to take Dramamine before flights, car rides and amusment park rides. I also never wanted to fly after that because I was worried someone around me would get sick and I would have no where to go. I say "wanted" and "worried" because I don't have that fear anymore thanks to Hynosis. Since Hypnosis, I can fly and not be worried about anyone. I even flew by myself. That means I had to sit next to strangers instead of the comfort of sitting next to my family. Buuuut I still have a HUGE problem with someone getting sick around me anywhere else. I soooo so so badly want to have kids someday. But how do I expect myself to take car of them when they throw up?? I also WORK with children. My JOB is to take care of them. But when they get sick, I am usless. I run out of them room and someone else has to take care of it. I can't hear it, I can't smell it, I can't see it. If I know someone isn't feeling good, I get very uncomfortable unless I can leave. Recently I really feel like I am being taken over by this. I will be in a public place, and randomly picture someone throwing up. Nothing triggers it, I just think of it. This never used to happen. I feel if it gets worse, I need to quit my job. And I better figure something out when i have kids of my own because, I am ment to be a mother believe it or not. I just know it.
I have read that there are no cures for this phobia. But I plan on going back to a Hypnotherapist. Because whatever she did the first time cured my fear of flying. She focused mainly on flying because we thought that might have been the trigger of this phobia. But it wasn't and that's why it didn't cure anything else.
Up until now, I felt that I was the only person out there with this problem. It's nice to know I am not.I will be glad to talk with other about this. I hope that it will help me a little.
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