Fear of eating...I have beaten it!

[sweetfreak]

About a year ago my emet was so bad that I could barely eat. I am about 5 foot 6, and for awhile my weight went down to about 108, my normal weight is about 130. Well, I have been eating more, and gradually gaining weight. I am at 120 now, and my mother noticed, said my jeans were looking tight. I am so happy I could cry. I was so skinny and disgusting to look at for awhile and now I am filling out again. Anyway, I was hoping somebody else may have some similar good news to share. [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[intuitive1]

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you are an inspiration- how did you achieve this?


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[Jenneh]

wow.. that post is lke completly opposite to smthing i wud have written lol....


for me its.. "my Jeans are looking bigger, and that made me SO happy!" lol


hm. shut up Jen.


Jen xxxx


p.s. welldone [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]

[faith-marilyn]

WELL DONE!!!!! thats amazing! you're my inspiration ! so glad things are better 4 u xxx

[sweetfreak]

Lisa,


To answer your question, how did I achieve this...ummm...it wasn't easy...for many months I battled with my fear of eating. I never felt hungry...even when my stomach growled...and I knew it was hunger...I just felt no desire to eat. I would think about food and feel sick. So...I did what I had to. I forced myself to eat...no matter how afraid I was. For awhile...every bite of food had me in tears...seriously...but I just let myself be afraid and forced it down, even though every bite of food made me gag. Eventually, I reached the point where I am now. I eat, and while I don't always enjoy it, I no longer fear it like I did. And yes, I am still terrified of vomiting or of other people vomiting...haven't gotten over that yet...not sure if I will ever be completely unafraid of doing that...but I found that my stomach feels so much better if I keep it full...rather than starving it. I just always try to keep that in mind now. Any of you...that are in the same place I was...hardly eating anything because you are afraid of being sick...I know...if you persist...change your way of thinking...you can eventually get to where I am now. If I can do it...anyone can.

[intuitive1]

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<TD id=HB_Focus_Element vAlign=top width="100%" background="" height=250 UNABLE="off">sweet freak- you have been very brave in confronting your fears and should be proud at how you are achieving a positive state of health- my fear is destroying my body and i cannot find the way to overcome it - i experience so much nausea if i do eat because i havent eaten 'properly' for 12 years and my body has 'shut down' digestively- plus i have the psychological anxiety etc which also causes more nausea- add that together with a mind full of prior bad experiences and the fact that i seem to 'self-create nausea psychosomatically'.but, ihave to function well enough to raise 3 children- you can see why my attempts to eat as you have fail miserably in comparison- i have done this for weeks at a time, tried to slowly eat more food and with more variety and normality etc - hoping that eventually the nausea etc will either pass or i will adapt to it - but it just becomes overwhelming instead and the enjoyment and satisfaction i receive in first eating the food is far outnumbered by the bad physical and psychological affects i have for hours afterwards- i weigh it up mentally and its just not worth it- not when there's no positive end result for me... no end to the nausea and the fears etc but - i also know i am irrational and illogical because if i dont do 'something' this fear will have broken my body to a point beyond repair-i guess its something i just dont take on- i refuse to accept that this may eventually kill me- starving my body etc - i am so used to eating what i do that my body actually doesnt request more- nor does my mind and yet it is such a small amount i need to re-train it to accept more food or i shall continue to wither away-this is all so hard for my husband and children- i weigh half what i used to and i am dismally un-optomistic- but even if i cannot take on 'rational' thought and put it into 'process' for myself- i try to be encouraging and uplifting to others who may be stronger mentally than i am- its so good to hear of others who are able to re-think their thought patterns and acheive a positive outcome- its all i can do - offer support to others as i dont seem able to change anything for my own self.[img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]what a depressing blub i am eh!!!!!!at least i still retain my sense of humour eh!!!!!!!??!!!!!!!</TD></TR>
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[gutterglitter]

*About a year ago my emet was so bad that I could barely eat. I am about 5 foot 6, and for awhile my weight went down to about 108, my normal weight is about 130. Well, I have been eating more, and gradually gaining weight. I am at 120 now, and my mother noticed, said my jeans were looking tight. I am so happy I could cry. I was so skinny and disgusting to look at for awhile and now I am filling out again. Anyway, I was hoping somebody else may have some similar good news to share. [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]</font>

This is totally me talking. I was exactly the same! A year ago, it was so bad that I was about 105 pounds (5'6"). Now, I have beatent the fear of eating as well. If anyone is interested in knowing how I beat it, check my thread in the "treatments" section.

[dancingbarefoot]

That is truly wonderful news!!! I hope some day I can have an ounce of your bravery. Thank you for giving me some hope.


Anna [img]smileys/smilies_39.gif[/img]

[jenn000jenn]

Wow that is Great I have done the same. I over came my
eating problem. Before I really new my fear was effecting my life I was
down to 82 pounds!! I am only 5'3 but my normal weight is 100lbs. I had
terrible time with food my mom took me to many specialist but they all
told my mom I was anerexic. So not true I didnt want to look that
skinny. I look forward to every pound I gain.



I had a slight relapse for about a week but I told myself I will not live like this. And food taste good again. (for now) [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]



I am glad I found people with simalar issues.



Happy for you



Love



Jenn[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

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[sunshine16]

Wow. Thats amazing. Good for you hunn. i'm so pround.



right now my weights being a bit of a worry, I'm 5" and right now weigh
52 pounds. my mom thinks im anorexic which I am definatly not, I just
have a small appitite. I lost 23 pounds in a week and a half without
trying to, and when I try to gain, it just doesnt stick. i ate mc
donalds (really fatty food) 3 days in a row and gained 2 pounds. a few
days later i lost that weight. I hate it.



bahumbug



thats why your story inspires me so deeply. thanks for sharing, and
once again congratulations! i hope one day my story can be like yours

[missbecca]

I have bouts of this problem. In fact, this is going on with me right now because I'm afraid of catching the stomach virus. First of all, I can't eat when I'm stressed out about something. Second, the thought of catching it makes me not want to eat! For the most part, I enjoy eating.

[holly18]

i had anorexia for years because of my emet too. Im 5'2" and my lowest wiehgt was 5stone 3 pounds. I was going to be admitted to a specialist center with people with eating disorders and force fed if i did not start myself. So i was scared into eating again. I was terrified of them puttin a tube down my throat and feeding me so i began by eating just soup and worked my way up. I too felt hungry but i actually liked it because it was comforting. If i had a feeling in my stomach i would think "Im not sick, im just hungry" one of the problems i had was a i could differentiate between different feelings in my stomach.


Now i am the complete opposite, i am overweight because i latched on to a new idea in my head. Someone told me that i was more likely to be sick if i didnt eat and it would hurt if i V* on a empty stomach, so now i dont like feeling hungry. a soon as i feel hungry i have to eat something to make the feeling go away.


You can have some of my extra pounds if you want! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[sparky2004]

This is great news. You are an example to us all, and a source of hope!


Good luck![img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[sweetfreak]

Thank you, sparky. I don't know if I am an example for us all...a bad one, maybe. LOLI mean, I dropped out of everything...life...because my fear got so bad...wouldn't leave the house. But...thank you...yes...I can eat now...and go out to...for me, it's all about making my fears my friends rather than my enemies.


And anyone that wants to give me their extra pounds, send 'em on over. Even though I am gaining, I could still use more. [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]