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[ejb199]

ok guys - so i havent been around for a good month or so - and boy does it look like things have changed round here. what happened to the support guys - what happened to the love and understanding that we used to share here. come on people - u know who u are - i dont(!) but please dont ruin this amazing safe haven with stupid comments.

ok rant over and back to the title of this post. i have been up alllll night. it started yesterday - and i was convinced it was due to reducing the dose of effexor that im taking - the withdrawal affects can be pretty harsh. so i came home and convincing myself that i probably felt hunger sick - i packed myself wih food - bad idea. form abot 9 pm onwards - i have been gaggin/retching - running round our garden like a lunatic (poor neighbours) - i just didnt wanna do it in my home. so i sat in the grass shivering and crying and told jon(bof) to go to bed when it got to 1. i had retched 3 times but nothing - god i just wanted to get it over with - i even stuck my fingers down my throat.

i have really terrible pains in my chest and lower back and tummy - this bit convincing me it was a bout of IBS. i dont know what it is guys - and the worse thing - it is halve six - ive been up with nausea and dirrohea every two hours or so - i still feel sick. it just wont go away. im so scared and i dont know what to do? what is wrong with me? IBS? withdrawal from effexor? a bug? food poisoning?

i just wanna die - ive been sick 3 times this year - i dont think i can go on anymore.

[charzysbebe]

I am sorry that you have to go through this! I myself have cut myself off of antidepressants before (cold turkey) and never had withdrawl like that. The worst withdrawl I had was the "jolts", dizziness, and appetite loss. When did you get off your antidepressant??


If you ask me, I would say that it is not withdrawl causing your problems. It seems like it is something more like IBS (which I have) or a bug. That is horrible that you have been sick 3 times!! I have had a winter like that, with the V bug...I had it 3 times also. I would say if you don't feel better by tomorrow, then go to the doctor. It could be something more serious. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]Hope you get to feeling better!! Keep us posted! Charlotte

[ejb199]

Hey Charlotte
thanks for ur kind words - jon just went out to get me some pepto bismol - ive never had it before but it seems to have settled me a bit. i think im just gonna stay home and wrap up warm. he thinks that if i was gonna be sick - i would have been last night whilst i was prancing round the garden in my nighty! but im not so sure - i keep getting these terrible wasves of pain and nausea. it feels like IBS as its really low down and in my back - but then it has NEVER been this bad.

and yeah - i dont think it can really be withdrawal - i only took 65 little grains out of the capsule of 75mg. i think im just gonna keep on them till after xmas. i feel good on them so maybe i shouldnt stop taking them. im obviously not over emet at all.

ill keep u posted. jons gone to wokr now but i think he might be back early. hes been so sweet to me. but i have to cope alone now - I CAN DO IT - I HAVE TO!

[charzysbebe]

Well that is good I think you would have been sick a when you were prancing around. I think the worst is over for you. Keep telling yourself that, and you will feel better.


Maybe your nausea waves are anxiety related?? Try and meditate and relax. Imagine being in a peaceful place, and listen to peaceful music. If that works, then itwas anxiety making it worse.


Just relax...and if you do happen to get sick, tell yourself "I have v'd before, and I lived. I will feel better if I v. There is a beneficial reason for my v'ing." Good luck...and feel better soon! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img] Charlotte

[sparky2004]

I'm sorry to hear that you have had a rough time. I would suggest not stopping any forms of medication on your own, due to side effects. Never stop any meds cold turkey unless advised by your doctor. The side effects could be moderate to severe and you could end up in the hospital.

[hippychick]

Hey Emma *hugs* Feel better soon honey, I dont think you will be sick now, and I'm with ya on the wanting t be out of the house when you feel sick. It sounds like a really rough night but as always you are coping amazingly well! You are a really strong woman, don't forget it!


X


P.s I hear you on the forum being changed! lol


P.P.S Sparky she didnt say she stopped cold turkey but that she had reduced the dose, which is how it is reccomended you come off these pills. X

[2jo2]

Oh Emma, I'm so sorry you're feeling bad. I went off Effexor a couple years ago, and I went off sllllloooooooowwwwwwly and still had the withdrawl, dizziness, nausea, slow motion head and zaps. It was horrible. When I was having my withdrawl, I began to look up others on the net who were going thru the same thing, and some went thru exactly what you're going thru, they were really sick. I know you probably don't want to go back up on your dose, but maybe it would help. I had to take the capsules apart and take out beads each day, and still had the withdrawl. I know what you're going thru and I feel so badly for you. Hope you feel better.

[ejb199]

Hey guys
wow what a traumatic 24 hrs! and im stil alive and trying to keep cheerful. i just kept trying to focus on the really good things in my life and think how this is such a tiny fraction to pay for it and how unsignificant it will all be. i am still in quite a lot of pain - all in my abdomen and lower back. i really dont think it is the withdrawal. ive carried on taking the capsules tho. i guess its a bug or virus. i havent eaten for 24 hrs - and i STILL have diarohea - where does it all come from(!) lol!

i just hope i dont start feeling so sick agn - it really was awful. id never wish it on anyone. but we mustn panic guys - we need to focus on what life is really all abt - and it sholdnt be dictated by emet - i honestly think the panic and hysteria led to me retching - oh i dunno. i could sit here a theorize all night!

anyway - big hugs to u all! (HUGS U ALL!) - lets keep healthy and calm!

xx

[princessmel]

I really hope you feel better soon, hon. [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[chloe]

Emma, hun, well done at coping as well as you did. We all cope in our own way and if yours was prancing round the garden in your nightie then stuff what anyone else thinks!


You're lukcy to have such an understanding boyf and I'm sure your diahorea (sp?) will ease up soon. You're right not to eat -if you feel like trying something try eating something bland - like plain toast (or maybe a little matg/butter on it) or plain crackers. Rich Tea biscuits are also a possiblity.


Hope you slept ok last night and that you're feeling better today *hugs*

[ejb199]

hey everyone - im feeling much much better today! i was kinda dreadin sleeping last night but jon tucked me into bed and told me to wake him if i felt ill or got panicky again - but i fell asleep quite soon and slept quite well!

i have just got up - not at work again - i think i need a day to regain my strength and i.e eat something - i havent eaten a thing - only drank water since abt 6pm on monday night so abt 40 hrs ago. i think i better try some food...

thanks for all ur support guys (BIG HUGS)

ems xx

[trickyvicky]

em i so pleased to hear that u have had a good nite sleep and feeling a littlebetter....the after affects from a virus can leave u feeling like u still have it because of no energy,no appetite and just feeling like crap basically but i think its so inspiring to hear u speak so positive.....good on u girl......anyway u take care look after yourself.........and whata great Boyfriend!!!!!!


Vicky x