I just found this website, and actually learned the name of my fear. I've been living with it for 20 years now. Back in late April I got a sv with d*, however I only v* once. I don't know if it was due to my nerves or the sv, but ever since my fear has really flared up. I also suffer from panic attacks, and being n* always occurs when I get really nervous. I take Xanax when that happens, which use to be rare. Now I'm taking it almost everyday because I can't shake this fear that I'm going to be sick. I've only v* like 4-5 times my whole life, this fear seems so irrational, and most of my family and friends just don't understand. What's worse is it's starting to effect my eating habits, and every little twinge in my stomach sends me searching for the Xanax to calm me down, in case I start to freak. I know that's not healthy, but I'm so at my wits end here. Furthermore, I am about to leave my comfort zone and move to Japan. I don't want this to interfere with this, since I've worked hard to get this job. Does anyone have any advice? I can't tell you how happy I am to hear that I'm am not alone.