OK..so last night (friday night) I didnt go to ebd until midnight..then well..is tarted to feel really icky..i got horrible tummy cramps..like bad gas ones..but then..then..I got these pains in my stomach..


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Soo...i truck myself into the abthroom and make myself a l.ittle camp..with a blankie..and my pepto and mints...and then the naseau hits...HARD..and horrible...i open up the toilet..and lean over..just in canse..it passes...but then it returend...worse..i sucked back a swig of pepto..but a few minutes later the nasuea came back..and i heaved...dry heaved..nothing came up..it was only once..but it hurt...i started to feel a little better after that..





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i crawled into ebd but coupkdt sleep..so i was up until 7 this morning..the my god forsaken mother-in-law calls at 7:21....when I answered groggy i got..and this is no jonke :jeeze everyone else is awake so now you are too..ha ha" nice...i slept till 10:30.


I got up..got showered and dressed..stil with really abd tummy cramps..which have not passed..and Ims cared to death.


I ate some chicken and noodles by Dinty Moore...and then a little friend rice from teh local chinese resteraunt. Iw as brave..i did christmas shopping today..ia ctually left the house....and i even went out toe at. But now Im home..and its getting on towards bed time..and im so scared its gonna happen again.


I have to work tomorrow..I cant call out..i only work two nights a weeka nd sundays...and I was out once this week already because of panic attacks.


im so scared guys..iw as doing so much ebtter..even ladt night i thought id be ok..i felt so miserable i prayed for it to come so the naseau would pass....but now..im just scared....imd eading going to bed...


what am I to do???