OK I having a down day, as usual... I woke up Nausea, (nothing New there) so it tends to go away, as the morning progresses.. so I just get some toast at wk.. Well today I did just that, and I am still nausea, and just sad and happy(its possible).. I found out yesterday that this Phobia of mine could have been caused by my stepmother, she abused me for almost 7 years. I am Nausea almost every day, and fearfulldaily that I will get aStomach bug, and its soo stupid, I mean I know that I will be ok,but the fear is still there.It runs mylife sometimes, (like today) and I am ANGRY, and DEPRESSED.Now we are approaching the holidays, and I want to enjoy them with my son, its his first christmas, eay play with him, have a good time with DH, I might be giving to much info here, but I need to vent, I can not even be Intimate with DH sometimes, because of how strong the Nausea is. Why did my step mother have to abuse me, why did she have to make me fear something that is not really a big deal( I do not mean to upset anyone here with that comment) I had it hidden so well all these years and as soon as my son was born, It comes to surface, and I am just so frustrated, I am in the process of waiting results of a stomach Scan, that might answer why I am Nausea all the time, in the mean time I am just angry.. Sitting at my desk at wk on the verge of tears, a stomach ach, and Nausea.. [img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img] Sorry needed to vent, and that I did..


Christy