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[krabcakes99]

Lately, I've been feeling like i just wanna give up all the time. I can't stand eating and when I do I get mad at myself for eating too much. I never have anything to keep me busy and always obsess over getting exercise between every single meal, because I fell like if I don't, then I won't be hungry later and I'll v* from eating. I don't have any friends and I haven't got out of my house in a while. I am so depressed and every time I try to do something, I just lose interest or tell myself that I don't like to do normal things like other kids or people my age. I haven't had fun in so long... I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy. I'm just so sick of my life! My family tries to understand but there isn't anything in my life that I can look forward to or be proud of, so they are out of answers basically. I just needed to let everything out and I hope someone can help me somehow.

[lelliottxx]

Lately, I've been feeling like i just wanna give up all the time. I can't stand eating and when I do I get mad at myself for eating too much. I never have anything to keep me busy and always obsess over getting exercise between every single meal, because I fell like if I don't, then I won't be hungry later and I'll v* from eating. I don't have any friends and I haven't got out of my house in a while. I am so depressed and every time I try to do something, I just lose interest or tell myself that I don't like to do normal things like other kids or people my age. I haven't had fun in so long... I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy. I'm just so sick of my life! My family tries to understand but there isn't anything in my life that I can look forward to or be proud of, so they are out of answers basically. I just needed to let everything out and I hope someone can help me somehow.

heyy,
so do you think you have an eating disorder? is it mainly food and not being able to eat the right amount thats bothering you?
it sounds like your letting it really get to you, i think we all know what those days feel like, i know its horrible but hang in there things will get better somehow, if you dont leave the house much, then find a hobbie like cooking, something that will distract you from thinking to much, i always think about stuff to much and thats one of the reason i never sleep, i let things get to me to much and i over think things and since my phobia has got worse ive stopped going out much, but if you find something to do when your at home to distract your self like cooking, going through your stuff, drawing, music, anything that will keep your mind from thinking to deeply about the situation because i know it just makes things harder when your on your own and you feel lonely so the first thing you think of is everything bad in your life untill you become depressed about it.
good luck, and chin up, things are hard at the moment but remember it wont last forever.

laura.

[krabcakes99]

thanks for the advice. And I already do cook, so it's funny you mentioned that.

[lelliottxx]

thanks for the advice. And I already do cook, so it's funny you mentioned that.

Stick with cooking then, but do something diffrent, get a new cooking book and make new recipies you havent made before, this will help you take your mind of your problems and focus on cooking,

[krabcakes99]

i could do that. I also had the idea to donate my baked goods to people in need, so i could feel better myself and help others.

[lelliottxx]

thats a really good idea and it will alo make you feel relly good about helping others which will help you pick yourself up a bit

[olschesky]

it sounds like you have depression on top of the emet.......that feeling of not wanting to do anything or go anywhere.....afraid you will get sick if you do leave, etc.

have you ever been on an antidepressant? i found that prozac has really been a life saver for me.

the longer you stay in your house....the harder it's going to be to get out.......you really need to push yourself a little further out of your comfort zone everyday.......it's hard, i know......i still have days like that.....but you've got to try.....you really don't want to be stuck in the house......and that will creep up on you if you let it.......

it's not easy....but in the long run it will make your life happier and more fulfilling..........

good luck.......

[krabcakes99]

thanks for all the suggestions. I will try to get out. I made plans to get out and do something with my mother tomorrow, so hopefully it might lift my spirits.

[hollybree]

I know exactly how you feel. But the fact that you do get through each day shows that you have a great deal of inner strength and I think you are very brave. Remind yourself of how hard you are fighting to get through, even though you feel like you aren't doing anything, reaching out like this is really strong thing to do. And you should feel proud of yourself for this!!! I think a hobby is a great idea and baking for people who need food is going to enrich your life as well and even the idea is yet another thing to feel proud of. What a generous spirit to think of something so kind when you are so down. By the same token don't put too much pressure on your self, be your best friend and be kind to yourself. Plans with your Mum is great, one step at a time. Maybe you should try to have some fun on-line, start a blog or chat on-line. I think that maybe if you aren't seeing a Dr you should consider it. It may be a real turn around or it may be fruitless, but it cant hurt. All the very best.

[krabcakes99]

Thanks so much! it feels better to talk to someone about it, so i appreciate everyones suggestions and help. It feels nice to know that people care and understand me

[Harmony]

Being fellow emets we will always understand because we all know that feeling.
How have you been lately?
i read your profile that you are 13. You are so young. I'm 21 right now & trust me...I'm pretty pathetic. I would do anything to be young again and change mistakes I've made.
You can do so much right now. I know emet is hard and i can say that i may not understand (because my emet never bothered my life when i was young) but i can say that as you are growing, you have the opportunity to evolve your mind. Do you like school? Study and work hard. you don't want to end like me (never had a job before & currently not going to college but if God wants maybe soon). trust it will pay off later. do you have hobbies? now is the time to start looking into what you like. you can really do so much. never give up because you never know what great things can come to you. I know maybe you're not happy now but with so many years ahead of you....who knows what can happen. there's a world out there waiting to be opened you just need to take the first step.

[krabcakes99]

Thanks, harmony. And yes, I do have a big interest in school and hobbies. I started going to a great private school last year because i was having lots of trouble, but I am really looking forward to the new school year and working hard. I have many hobbies, cooking and basketball, like I put on my profile. But the hard thing is knowing how to indulge in those hobbies, I guess. Sometimes I feel like I need to be on a basketball team or take cooking classes, things that aren't readily available, just to have fun. But that's not true, I suppose. Well anyway, I'd like to thank you again for your inspirational post, and wanted to say that I am still hangin in there.

[NaiveAndTrue]

Over the years, isolating myself at times helped me become very comfortable with being by myself. I developed so many 'single person' hobbies - reading, jewelry making, etc. That I pretty much go crazy now if I don't get enough 'me time' to do it all! It used to bother my brother to no end - he was mr. social butterfly, and I'm always up in my room. Truth us, eventually, I began to ENJOY being by myself. Having hobbies, especially productive ones, became a really affirming outlet, and something to be proud of, despite my inability to always run out to the next big party.

I have wonderful friends, and a great boyfriend. I even feel guilty I don't spend more time downstairs w/ my mom lately (We just lost my brother in a car accident in March, then my dad to cancer in August), but I seriously get antsy.

[krabcakes99]

NaiveAndTrue, it makes me feel better knowing that there are people out there who can still live happily without being totally sociable. Thanks, and by the way, I'm sorry about your family's losses. Maybe you and your mom will grow closer over time.

[NaiveAndTrue]

Just know that alone doesn't have to equal lonely, or even unhappy!!