hello

so im meant to be starting college on monday, but the problem is that my emeotphobia has been so bad latly that im even finding it hard to leave the house because im so on edge and im only starting to pick myself up abit now.
i REALLY want to start college on monday, im excited about going to a new place and starting a new course, but i dont want to have to take my phobia with me and i know that i will panick all day if i go in and then even not want to go back in again cause all i will do is panick so i dont know weather its a good idea for me to start even though i really want to.
and another this is with my emetophobia, im not sure if any of you do the same but one of my ways of coping with it is to not eat whenever i leave the house so i have nothing to be ill on if that makes sense, so i know i wont eat and that will make me ill and im really unsure what to do and my mum is starting to get annoyed so i need to make a decision about monday but im completly stuck! if any of you have any opoiinions i would love to hear them, i really need some advice on this one!