Tonight I half way gave in to the old habits where I have to check the expiration labels of everything I eat to see if it's still good; and re-cook food given to me; and avoid eating at the dinner table. I avoided the dinner table and ate a couple hand fulls of chips. I was so hungry I couldn't focus and waited for everyone to leave the kitchen, then went to the kitchen and ate some of the steamed broccoli, roast, and potatoes. I had half a cup of mashed potatoes, 2 small slices of meat and 1 piece of broccoli. I gave one slice of meat, the third, to my dog because it was already sliced and didnt know why the others didnt want to eat it so I felt something might have been wrong with it. I couldnt eat the other broccoli because i didnt like the color of it it was half yellowed; and started feeling full by the time I ate the potatoes.

I ate the meat w/o heating it, and I stopped myself from looking into the garbage to find the wrapping [to check the exp date]. My mom came back and was right there, and I just couldnt bring myself to do that in front of anyone. Besides I was so hungry I'd already eaten the meat so even if the date was expired I'd already have to deal with it. Im debating eating more meat and potatoes, because I liked the taste but I feel full. Maybe later tonight. If I get food poisoning Ive got between now and 3 days...and I just want to enjoy eating again. And after writing all that I am reaffirmed that I AM in fact still a pretty obsessive emet. Not panicky exactly, but obsessive...*sigh*


How about you guys, do you have any terrible food habits?