Pretty Proud of Myself!

[Embramp]

Two reasons:

Firstly, I had my first session of CBT on friday (was going to post about this earlier, but think my internet's been playing up and I couldn't get on the site :S). I was pretty scared to be honest, but the guy was really nice, it was only supposed to be a 45 minute session but we ran over to an hour and 20 cause he just let me talk about things for ages, he seemed to ask all the right questions

He set me two bits of homework; I had to buy a lottery ticket with all my 'good' numbers on and see if I won, then try and have one of my random thoughts but think 'if I don't do...... then Brett (therapist) will break his legs in a car crash.' And then not do it! Which seems a bit drastic to me, but he seems confident lol...

I didn't win the lottery, anyway. Which I guess is a good thing? Hehe. Hopefully that means his legs are alright too!

But yeah, I'm feeling really positive about it - it finally looks like I might be able to get rid of some of this constant worry!!

Secondly (and this is the bit I'm really proud of, sad as it may sound hehe), as some of you will know from my last post, my boyfriend's been pretty ill recently having seizures and things... Well he's fiiiiinally had his brain scan and has been put on some tablets for the fits, but these are making him feel really gross and drowsy all the time.

So yesterday, he was having a particularly bad day and early afternoon time he v* just as he was starting work and got sent home, obviously. That evening he was still feeling crappy and so decided to take the next day off (today).

He also said he'd really like to see me.

He hadn't v* again since the first time, but he said he was feeling n* on and off and said he'd understand if I didn't want to come over. He's really understanding about my emet

BUT, after arguing with myself for a long while I eventually decided to stop being selfish and go round to comfort him - and not just for a couple of hours, I stayed the whole night, in the same bed!!!

I mean, I barely slept a wink all night; every time he made a noise I was wide awake considering my escape routes, but just knowing that I'd managed to be there for him when I would normally have avoided seeing him for days after he'd v* really made me proud of myself hehe!

So just thought I'd share

[Francesca]

Good job! Keep up the good work!

[olschesky]

glad you had a good therapy session.......so important to like and trust your therapist. it sounds like you're going way beyond your homework by going and staying with your boyfriend......that is awesome........keep being strong....you're doing great.

oh......your internet wasn't messed up......this site was down all weekend

[Embramp]

Thank you
Ahh right, that'd explain it then!!

[abbu]

Well done!